Know Yourself

Circumstances chip away at your heart, I am convinced it is what you do after that mends that broken heart. Yes my mother died when I was 17 and soon after my father kicked me out, the breakup of my first marriage, which was not my choice. Becoming a weekend father to my son, trying to rebuild my life again. I blamed God asking him why is he punishing me this way ?
I was angry at the same time sad blaming someone else for my misfortunes, I needed to do something to change all these negative thoughts into positive thoughts. Otherwise instead of swimming I would sink like a stone.
I came to the conclusion that life is a learning circle, by coming through these events in my life. I was becoming stronger at the same time not becoming hard but mellowing with age.
In this learning circle of life God was not punishing me but setting me tests, it was up to me not God to pull through and swim to that light at the end of the tunnel. Yes I did ask for his help but more as a friend than a savior. From that point on I took the knocks, picked myself up brushed myself down. Looked up into the sky told him this was going to be a hard test but would do my best. Never ever got 10 out of 10 on any of the tests but did always manage to come out at the end with a smile on my face.
Understand yourself before trying to understand other people, every person has a story to tell.
Take time out to listen and never ever judge only your God can do this.