LONELY

WOW SO MY FRIEND CALLED ME A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO AND I COULDN'T WAIT TO GET OFF THE PHONE. I MEAN I LOVE HER TO DEATH BUT WHEN WE GOT OFF THE PHONE I REALIZE HOW I RARELY EVEN CARRY ON A REGULAR CONVERSATION WITH ANYONE ANYMORE. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A PEOPLE PERSON AND DONT GET ME WRONG I STILL LOVE BEING AROUND PEOPLE BUT IT SEEMS LIKE I KEEP WANTING TO BE BY MYSELF MORE AND MORE AS THE TIME PASSES. I HAVE GOTTEN SO USED TO BEING SO BUSY AT WORK THAT I RARELY HAVE TIME TO TALK TO ANYONE, THEN GOING HOME TO MY APARTMENT (TO MY PUPPY) AND JUST WATCHING A MOVIE OR CLEANING. WHICH LET ME TELL YA DOESN'T LEAVE MUCH ROOM FOR CONVERSATION. NOT THAT I MIND IT MOST OF THE TIME. I HAVE TWO JOBS SO ALOT OF MY TIME IS SPENT WORKING AROUND PEOPLE BUT WHY IS IT THAT NOW WHENEVER I HAVE SOME OFF TIME I CANT WAIT TO BE BY MYSELF. IS THIS NORMAL? IS IT NORMAL TO GO THROUGH PERIODS OF YOUR LIFE WHEN ALL YOU WANT IS TO BE LEFT ALONE. I USED TO TALK ON MY PHONE ALL THE TIME NOW I FIND MYSELF HITTING THE SILENT BUTTON SO I DONT HAVE TO MISS A PART OF MY MOVIE. THIS IS SUCH A WEIRD REALIZATION ABOUT MYSELF THAT I COULD REALLY USE SOME ADVICE OR EVEN ENCOURAGEMENT...I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT FROM THIS. I JUST WANTED TO GET IT OUT. SO NOW IT IS! WHEW!!!!