In the silence of my heart.

How many times have we sat at a distance and had a thought of judgement on our minds? Many times right? I know I am guilty of it. But the Bible reminds us of the importance of not placing judgement on others. God is the final judge, and we should make every effort to remember this. We are called to love one another, not to judge one another.

Every day we should be pursing God more and more. I am in a constant pursuit of knowledge, wisdom, patience, and love. Looking back I am so thankful and amazed that God will not always give us what we ask for… He knows better than each and everyone of us, and He is our ultimate protector and provider. He knows better than to give us a momentary wish and fill a momentary desire, rather, through our waiting He will teach us patience and perseverance. God delights in giving us gifts.

I am blessed in my season of waiting. I am called to seek and to serve. To minister and grow. I pray that one day I will be able to pour my heart completely into missions & ministry, and hopefully one day that will be with my husband [deep deep prayer of my heart, that I must completely surrender to God's will]. God already knows this plan. I don’t, I have no clue it feels like. I know the desires of my heart, but I know I must be patient in waiting. I want to pour my life out to kids, to minister to them, and help them grow and experience the everlasting love of Christ. Whether that be through camps, outreaches, medicine, photography, sports, God wherever you lead, I will follow.

I hold some prayers in the silence of my heart. God you know them, and I’ve been blessed to have several friends that I can share them with. I lift these prayers up to you, I surrender my heart today, and everyday. It is a choice that I am willing to make on a daily basis, because I know the Kingdom is greater than any earthly desire. I surrender. I pray for your help to look beyond my heart, to look beyond my dreams and my visions, to seek your face, to show your love, to be deeply committed to something bigger than I on my own can possibly fathom. I pray that you prepare my heart for what is to come this summer, and throughout this year. I pray for strength, for endurance, for complete trust in you Father.