My story for why I am looking for a real love

Hello to all who reads my blog. My name is Stephanie and i am 37 yrs old soon to be 38 this month and I am so ready to be settled down with a good man who will love me effortlessly and with al the careand gentleness a man can give so I can share all my love in return. Anyway this is my story, i was married at 18 to a person who I thought I was gonna spend the rest of my life with had my first child right away. He was in the navy and I put off my career choice to be with him on what I thought was gonna be a good life for me and my children but during our 6 yrs of marriage he strayed while doing alot of tours over seas and i probably wouldnt have cared if he wasnt tupid enough to bring all his evidence of his infidelities home, hiding them in places where he thought i would have no reason to look like my kitchen(DUH!) I had 3 children with him total, by my 3rd child he was dishonorably discharged from the military for smoking pot and we had just changed duty stations so when he got booted we had no where to go. We eventually went back to our home state where we lived with my grandparents while i went to work and he stayed home and continued with all his cheating till he got another woman pregnant and that was the straw that broke my back. I gave him the boot. I raised my children on my own without his help for yrs and then i decided to leave my home town to try and give my kids more. I moved to NC where I met another man who was 6 yrs younger than me at the job I started working at when i got here and he persued me hard and I wasnt to sure about him because he was younger but i gave him a try and we dated for basically 6 yrs and there was some ups and downs mostly downs but i tried to deal and cope well about 4yrs into the relationship i decided to buy me a double wide because i was tired of living with him in his cramped apt and he asked me was i taking him and his son with me and my kids and i was hesitant at first but I was a sucker and gave in despite all the problems we were having after being in my double wide for about a yr I got huurt at my job and they pulled me out of work and began recieving workers comp and of course i wasnt getting what i was making if i was at work so that meant he had to pull a little bit more weight to help keep the mortgage paid but that wasnt panning out for him he was too worried about having nice clothes and rims for his truck than paying the bills to keep our home eventually for some weird reason he started bugging me about marrying him and on that sucker note again i did it, my gutt was saying noooo!!! but u do dumb junk when u r in love. long story short I lost my home had to move and after that we split after being married for not even 6 months he brought me a dodge caravan and took that back from me after we split up even though i paid off his first lil car he had when we met and then turned around and gave him the down payment for the explorere he was driving. My point is I married a man that constantly took from me when it suited his needs but when I was in need he turned his back on me so thats why I am looking for a true honest real man who is deserving of my heart and soul.