"The Letter" ( Archived) (10)

The Letter...
It's a true story of how I begain the process, so many years ago in dealing with the ending of a 25 year marriage. This isn't current, so please don't mis-understand this as something current.


Today was a day like any other day, I went to the mail box to retrieve my mail....glancing thru the mail I couldnt help but notice "The Letter" I knew the sender in a instant... Boy was I surprised, it had all the lil things written on it she use to write and say.

It was even splashed with her favorite perfume! I knew that scent in an instant.

Walking back to my house, I lifted The Letter to my nose and smelled that all to familiar scent that use to linger in my mind and heart The excitement and anticepation was driving me crazy!
So I sat down and just stared at The Letter, for what seemed like hours...finally I opend it... and heres what it read....

Hey Baby,

I know your probably wondering why after all this time I'm writting you this Letter? but I had to, I had to get some things off of my mind, after sitting down and thinking of all the times we shared and how much we once meant to each other, all those times of just sitting there and looking at each other and laughing, kissing just because, with no real reason other then our eyes told us too..

Holding each other for what seem like hours at a time....getting lost in conversations that only we understood, all the lil inside jokes we had, that no one else had a clue, of how we could just look at each other and smile even from across the room, you knew how to make me smile, and sometimes forget what I was saying when our eyes would meet, because we both knew exactly what the night would bring.

When you would walk by, you knew my eyes were all over you, I just could'nt help it...everytime you did what you did to me, my Heart would just melt.
My friends would ask me Are you okay? all I could say was yes I'm so in love with him, he drives me crazy!

All the times we just laid in bed laughing and kissing sometimes had to quit kissing because we counld'nt stop laughing at how silly we were, it seemed like we were back in high school! All those late night promises we made, of life and how it was going to be, it didnt even matter what we had or didnt have, as long as we had each other....Where did it our love go? we had it all...but something went wrong? Where did I lose you and where did you lose me? How could something that seemed so right, end up tearing us apart? I have asked my self these questions over a million times....

I miss you Baby I really do.....there have been times, where I just walk around all those memories, that use to make me wonder what I did did so right that brought you thru that door, which one did I walk thru that made you mine.. these are the things that keeping rolling across my mind!

Now all that's left is the memory of what Love use to be, is there nothing I can say? is there nothing I can do? that would make you see that you belong to me and I belong to you. If I could just Turn back the Hands of Time...What I would'nt do, To have just one more moment with you...

What seems so crazy is, at the time you dont really realize just how much someone means to you, because your so caught up in how good it feels down deep inside...

But I guess that was then, and this is now.....

I just had to let you know, that there was a time in my life, when you were everything to me, the memories of how love use to be and how it was when you were lying next me, the Love we shared will always stay in my heart I just miss you.

You know, my friends would all be surprised if they knew I was playing this game! You see, I wrote this letter and then signed your name.....

Thought i'd break the ice for ya................

Awwww thanx for being there for me... But it's not really something alot of people can respond too, How many have done that? It was more of just giving some an idea of how another has dealt with a break up.

Yea well some have a different view to things like this , i guess...

Awwww that spice of life, everyone being so different..
I'm sure many just don't know what to say, it was more of a personal thing I did, to help work through a rough time in my life.

Sweetie, I dont think I can read your letters again, its SO SO much how I feel right now.....it kills me, Im tempted to sign my name and send to him, BUT I wont and I cant.....

Please tell me that this feeling passes? and that it is possible to wake up in the morning and not ache because its over??



Debx

Awwwwww...I'm sorry Hey cut and paste then print it and sign your name, that's what I did with her, sort a speak, everything she use to say I wanted to hear it again even if it was from my memory.

The good news is.....Yes it does pass, but it does take time, we are all very different, what some can get over in a month or two, it takes others a year or two. But yes one day you wake up and realize everything is going to be just fine. That feeling of a hole in your soul in time heals, and you begain to live again.

When I use to go to the store, I walked in, picked out what I needed, and never paid attention to anything else around me. Until one day my daughter went with me and said dad, do you know her? I'm like who? she said that lady who is starring at you.. I have no idea who she is, but the lady came up to me, made some lite chit chat and handed me her phone number already written down.. I didn't know what to say, she said call me... Well needless to say my daughter wasn't to happy Not because it was her first time of seeing a woman come on to me but she was mad cause the lady didn't even bother to ask if she was my daughter or just a young girlfriend...

So yes one day your out and about or you meet someone online and things just take off, you find someone you click with it's like you both lived or atleast understand each other's story, sometimes it just take a good friend with an understanding ear, I was blessed enough to have someone like that come into my life, she's still like a big sister..(more like a banny rooster) lol but she care's for me like a sister would and I love her like a sister I never had. That's why I wrote the post "Someone Like You"

Letting go is the hardest part I'm not gonna front. it's not an easy thing to do. Because they still have a hold on us. But Sweety life really does goes on and things do get better, and you can get back to the real you, without the pain and hurt.

Ohh Pocco....

Its hard to seem real on here...but I am and I appreciate your response to me.. it gives hope that I will heal, how long? well as you said TIME heals all....

Thankyou every so much

Deborah x

Hola Deborah,
When I first came on line back in 04, I met a lady on a latin site, we became very good friends, she talked me into writing my first post, I was very nervous, she said this, Just be your self and write from your heart, don't worry about what others may say or think, just be true to your own heart, That's how people will come to know you.

I have always followed that advice, some mock it some get and others are not sure what to think of it. But we are all just people, I refuse to let another control or deter me from expressing how I feel and think. Just be your self, and don't worry what others think or say, that don't live your life.

You will heal in time, a broken heart is a hard blow to over come, we don't give our love to just anyone, very few will ever truly know our love, so it is our gift, and when we give it, we only ask it be treated with kindness and sweet consideration.

In time you will be just fine, this will pass, but it took time to fall in love and it takes time to fall out of love.

Tu Amigo
Poco