I keep the memories...forever is gone ( Archived) (11)

I remember your smile
Your spikey hair
Your magical personality

Everyday you are in my heart,
and sometimes a tear slowly touches my skin
it is then when I feel you the most, and there is no pain.

I hear your laughter, and your goofy jokes

I keep the memories...forever is gone

I never imagine you out of my life,
we went through so much together,
from the days when you made your human mistakes
and even when you judge me, I did not stop loving you

Because I knew that no matter what you said to me
You loved me very much, and in your insecurities you look
my love, in your pain, you ask for my advise, and in your joys
you gave me your words of wisdom

I keep the memories...forever is gone

I do not hurt every day...but I notice as the years go by
That I mourn your death all over again as the anniversary of you going to heaven approaches.

I have a deep pain that starts in September, and goes away in the second week of October

This is the third year since our last goodbye, since you last said
"I LOVE YOU MOM" "DO YOU LOVE ME?"...and I would say ...
"YES JIMMY I LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY"

Those that took your life, took away a brother, a son, a husband to be, a father, a friend, and a great man..and along with your life, they took away a part of us, the ones that love you unconditionally.

Here I am again once again..September to October
I loved you then, and I love you still, love never dies,
it keeps on growing.

So I keep the memories, because forever is gone.

I feel your pain because it reminds me of my own .... not of the loss of my child but that of my brother. On his birthday in July and on Dec 26th when he actually died. Funny its been 16 years ... and while the pain has eased the memories are always there to cherish.

Thank you for understanding, as I can understand you too.

I raised him since he was 4 yrs old, he was my brother, but became my son, and called me mom forever...his biological mom had passed away.

I was his mom in his eyes and everybody eyes...he came into my life at such a young age, and legally he was my son, and in my heart I gave birth to him.

I keep every memory him as if it was a movie going through my thoughts. Oct 9 2004 at 2:00 pm, he was taken away from me.

Well always treasure those memories because those that we lose so close to our hearts remain there forever. I was surprised that your post brought such strong emotions and made me cry after such a long time ... I miss my brother dearly and all the future that was taken away from him - as a husband, father, grandfather, uncle etc. as well.

Unfortunately we cannot control life or the actions of others or the choices that people make for their own lives and sometimes its a painful journey that we go through ... but I try to think of the good because that's what gets me through those sad times especially when its the anniversary of his passing.

Here is a hug... your reply brought tears to my eyes...how strange, but true, in this forum there are so many that can be touched by the words of others...I am sorry for your loss, keep those memeories, they can be relieved over and over again.

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The years go by, the memories are in our hearts forever.
When my daughter passed away May 12, 1992, I knew my world
had ended. She was 11 days away from her 17th birtday and
so excited about prom and college, that morning she left
for school. But I had other children and a husband and they
needed their Mom and wife. She was laid to rest on May 17th
My husband passed away before my very eyes so suddenly on
May 17th, 2003. That is a difficult day to get through. But
I look at their picture hanging on the wall and see them
smiling and I smile back at them because I know that is what
they would want. You are a very strong person Angel I will
keep you in my thoughts and prayers

i ahve read and read this many times and cant seem to find anything to say but memories are forever in our hearts loved ones i have lost when i speak of them i often speak of them in the present tense cause to me they will always be alive

Hold on to your memories as they are the key to eternal life, all the time we are thinking of loved ones passed then they are still alive within us, plaese accept this to help through your sad time ahead.

Thanks for your words, I am having many sleepless nights...when we lose someone there is a void in us that no one can replace.

I always feel your pain when you speak about your husband, and when you told me about your little girl...I will keep you in my prayers too, for I wish that your pain will ease too.

I lost 3 people in 5 yrs, but nothing compares to the lost of my son, it gave me such an impact that I have actually made spontanous decisions in my life, because of losing him.

Hugs....