I've grown tired of the vicious cycles
...
of the do's and dont's
the wrong's and right's
I've lost the will to fight
to stand against bliss with ignorance by myside
to stand upon my own pride with nothing inside
moving forward to crawl to walk to take flight
the fact i should or shouldn't
the woulds and coulds I didn't
Thoughts that waver I've begun to lose count
count of the endless mind numbing questions
where they began, ongoing and end
whether or not to relieve myself
from jumping out this plane, building or cliff
questioning wheres that next spliff?
screeching the voices are that echo
vibrate and torture the halls of my mind
close my eyes to mysteries yet to find
has me searching in disarray
curious as to why you decided to stay
thoughts of anger and disbelief
to drown the misery in make believe
to glance inwards instead of out
the reality of my perception is what it's all about
to stop lashing at others and find myself
that these feelings wont bend nor fix themselves
the dead the alive, the faithful the lies
the suttle differences between you and i
lets find a threshold of common ground
where the clouds no longer blanket the skies
where you and I can be alive
...
I've grown tired of the vicious cycles