Hopelessness that engulfed me long ago continues to take a toll
succumbing is imminent if I don't find the cure for my ailing soul
It's gotten more arduous keeping at bay the indignation I deeply feel
constant unwanted thoughts of dying have become scary real

I battle Demons like every person does in some capacity I'd surmise
you can't truly know others because all have something requiring disguise
For way too many years I have contemplated giving in to suicide
I'm still here because strength I've questioned is very alive inside

The will to keep on living was THE one thing I hoped to never lose
my life has been inundated with misery I didn't willingly choose
There are numerous reasons I can't ascend from the dark pit of grief
in my most desperate times I've called on a mythical god for relief

I have been unable to secure joy but thankfully it occasionally stops by
absolute detestation for our nefarious world tops all the reasons why
More often I find myself caring less about waking to another tomorrow
pain heightens knowing so many others are suffering even worse sorrow

To everyone like me struggling to endure this every day fight
'HOPE' we must somehow never allow to escape our sight
This utterly sinister life doesn't resemble a "Gift" at all
when you fall and feel you've reached to tired to stand...Crawl

Let the unconditional love of family be reason you stay
we can certainly wish all misery is going to end someday