Sinking in my sea of despair
Lost forever in my sorrow
Not changing as days go by
How do I hold on to hope
when I dream of you
nightmares steal your face
and the flame has turned to smoke
The seasons slip by
like a double-take in morning's stumble
The pain still cripples and I recall
why should I trust in God's hereafter
For there is no promise of joy
on this go around but the next
Now all I have is pain
The fire's embers are cold
And I've lost my want
Where do I turn when my path is so strait
and all I see at the end
is a lonely self-loathing
empty reflection of a disposable being
used today and discarded the next
Everything I touch ends up being a lie
and my daydreaming heart was the lies cohort
Now my smile is cold and as distant
as the memory of your kiss
I am too far gone
I feel only the pain
you brought me and
I stab at the ghost
of what might have been
I will never see the changes
you could have brought me
The love I believed was in reach
that I thought was real
made this fool dance and juggle in your court
Love is not blind but rather
blinding
I have accepted my end
And no longer will I cry
for pain is my only reliable mate
and Misery my child