I understand, I went through the same thing. Ended up on medication and that saved my life. People will give all sorts of well meaning advice but they don't understand. You can't get out of bed. You can't eat. You can't sleep. You see no way out. You are incapable of positive thoughts. Or action of any kind.
Sounds more like the love my dogs have for me than any human I've ever encountered, including myself. The reality is that I do need someone to reciprocate the love I give them.
I have to agree with knenagh, cat, and soulmate. If you don't get college out of the way, it may never happen and you have the rest of your life to travel.
RE: I M SORRY
Perhaps you misunderstood your friend?