Well said babe..the only thing I'd say is that when there is distance you get to know the real person because there is no physical contact to cloud your judgement..it allows u to get to know the real person!!
you ARE perfect Jas!! i am blessed to have had been ur friend first and foremost!! You amaze me every single day!! You're kind, caring, funny, loving, compassionate, smart and so beautiful both inside and out...see, you ARE perfect!!! 143
your words are as captivating as you are mahal!! you are very wise and humble, a rare duo..lol..i love reading you words almost as much as a love talking to you
haven't seen ms ester... hmmmm you are kind and sweet and yes intelligent and beautiful as well... and you have dreamed of living on a tropical island and of course you are thousands of miles away.. story of my life I am off to bed sweetie.. promised my daughter I would take her to church in the morning and morning is getting way too close for me.. sweet dreams
ehhh it was ok.. lol.. i had a few drinks and wound up in the back corner under a light reading my copy of A Pirate Looks at Fifty, by Jimmy Buffet.. It was nice though, nice breeze, couple of drinks and I even jumped in the water for a few minutes as the sun went down...all in all it was a pretty good day.. although my brain is now filled with life on a tropical island, waking to the smell of orange blossoms, bacon frying and salt air... I have my destination planned, all I need now is the company of an attractive, intelligent lady...
awwww thanks Smitten... and yes we's definitely cool I just got back from the pool.. good sun, cool water and an interesting conversation.. now it's me, the balcony, the computer and an iced coffee.... life does not get better than this.. unless I was on a small island somewhere with a lady as lovely as yourself for company ok that was cheesy, even by my standards
Hey Smitten, Good, I was afraid it was another of those things that sounds good in my head but doesn't translate well into words seriously, you expressed it beautifully.. you are pretty amazing..
Hi Venus, Drea Smitten and Adam... Yep, as someone who used to suffer from low self esteem, you are constantly fishing for compliments.. one day I realized that this was counter productive and I learned how to love myself.. I am no better looking than I was then but I think by presenting myself with confidence, it makes me more attractive than I was then... Does that make sense?
OMG.. great minds dear... I was just about to say the same thing Smitten.. she had no problem telling that guy he was not attractive.. those who cast stones... should not post similar blogs?
Hey Dobe.. Thank you for all of your kind words and for always being willing to listen.. you are a blessing!! I'm sorry you had to go through all of that but I am glad you were able to rediscover yourself, that to me is the most important thing.. For me it is just starting and to be honest I like it... I think the real turning point for me didn't happen until just a few days ago when I realized that I was practically begging her to just spend a couple of hours with me.. It finally hit me that I am worth more than that... I think I have you to thank for that, your strength and self worth have inspired me.. I cannot thank you enough for all that you have done.. you are a true friend and I am blessed to know you
Hey Bozz... yeah, writing from the heart is not new for me, but sharing it with people is.. I appreciate your kind words brother.. and if I ever find the answer I will be happy to share it with you as well
Doin great today hun.. thanks for your concern.. each day seems to be getting easier now that I have put all hope out of my mind.. now I can focus on me and what the future holds.. so many possibilities, dreams and goals... weird how we sometimes lose sight of all that when we "fall in love"... I am beginning to see my future and know what.. it looks bright lol... thanks for always being so sweet, you are a rare and beautiful person hun..
Thank you Kasih... I am learning to deal with that pain and finally understood that dealing with the pain of leaving is better than dealing with the pain of unrequited love for months or even years.. It's already starting to get a little better though..Thank you again for your advice
I must admit that I am usually against anything that puts more government into our lives and threatens our civil rights. However, in this case, after listening to a debate between a sheriff from Arizona and a Congressman from your great (and broke) state, I have to side with law enforcement on this one. They are not stopping people for "driving brown" as many liberals always seem to scream..I am sure there is a fair amount of profiling going on but the law does not allow them to simply stop someone because they appear to be Mexican. There must be a legal reason for them to engage ANYONE, black, white, brown or otherwise..If it is proven that this law is being broken or even skirted in any way then I say they should be tried and convicted just like anyone else who breaks a law. You have to agree that something has to be done when people who enter this country illegally are getting as many or more benefits that the citizens.. Maybe the answer is to take away the incentive to come here.. I don't profess to be an expert on this matter by any means, but as a concerned citizen I feel that something must be done, it is already out of control.. JMHO
Thank you Venus.. you are way too kind.. I have my faults trust me..and I was not always a good person.. when I was younger I went through a period where I hated myself for being this way and my way of rebelling so to speak, was to turn selfish and only think of what would make me happy... this got me in a lot of trouble and led to some very life altering circumstances.. I guess the good news is that I learned from it, made a full recovery and now can see the value in being a caring and giving person...though I wish this period of my life could be erased, I guess I don't regret it, if that is what it took for me to gain some perspective and realize that there is no greater joy, for me at least, than making another person happy.. then I would not trade those experiences for anything.. thank you for YOU.. you are a sweet and amazing person.. and I am truly blessed by you...
Hello again Venus... I went to bed last night and there were only 2 responses on this.. I woke up this morning and there were like 13 lol... so I am frantically doing my very best to respond to everyone.. I truly appreciate all the love and support I get on here.. Everyone is so amazing.. I guess I have learned a bit of a lesson and I will apply that to any future relationships that may come along.. As for me and Drea.. she is so sweet and kind and insanely insightful and alas, a bit out of my league lol... Seriously, she really is a sweet girl and I don't think she will have any trouble finding someone..Very nice of you to say though Venus.. Hope you are having a great day!!!
Hey there Maybe.. You are right.. and no I haven't stopped, maybe that is my problem.. I still love her and would do anything for her and maybe the problem is that she knows that But, I will keep giving cuz that is what I do lol... As for being a blogger, ummmm I don't know if this qualifies me yet lol.. Maybe the next one will be a bit more positive hahaha.. we can only hope.. Thanks for the advice
Hey Fun... Wow, it's as if you were watching the whole time.. I guess when you have been through it, the story is pretty much the same every time...No, I absolutely do not blame her.. although, in the beginning things were very different, she was very loving and showed her love and emotions freely.. but now in hindsight, I guess I can sense that even then there was some hesitation or maybe feelings of apprehension.. Either way, I guess the best thing I can do is move on, use this a learning experience and continue to be who i am... this certainly is not going to cause me to change who I am or how I react to love.. Thanks so much for your insight man.. and I'm sorry that it took you having to go through it as well to be able to relate to my situation...I think sometimes the best teachers are the ones who have experienced what they teach rather than just reading about it.. Stay strong brother and I have no doubt that the right person will come along for both of us!!
Moon.. i have read many of your blogs and responded to a few.. I have to tell you sweetie, your heart is not dead.. like mine, it may be beaten down and hurting, but I can tell just from your words that it is not dead.. through your words I can see that you are a kind and loving person and that your only desire is to be loved in returned.. hang in there sweetie, one day, some man is going to be very very blessed to be with you and receive all that you have to give.. and please keep writing, i look forward to seeing new blogs from you..
Hey there Roger.. yeah you would think that a person would be thrilled to find someone who loves them not only despite their faults but because of them, someone who loves them unconditionally and without fail.. I guess some people are just wired the other way though... Oh and yes, I feel like a complete fool.. I often wonder if she is sitting around with her friends reading the cards and letters I sent her and they are all having a good laugh... Sorry to hear that you spent so much time and invested so much into someone who couldn't or wouldn't appreciate it.. I guess the one bright spot is that this didn't turn into 15 years.. thanks for your thoughts and concerns brother Hope things are getting better for you
Hey Jim... great advice brother.. however, I actually did start out that way.. this was a fairly long term relationship,almost a year now and it started out as friends and quickly grew... At first it was very mutual and things were "perfect".. it wasn't until about 2 months ago that it began to change.. Not sure exactly what happened to change it but, so be it.. I will definitely be much more cautious and take the slow road next time.. Thanks for the input brother, hope you are having a good week
Venus, Yep, I think you guys nailed me lol.. I am great at giving but not so much at receiving.. even as a kid I hated being the center of attention and always tried to deflect it to someone else..That may very well be a part of my problem, although not really in this case... I have worked on that and was actually open to it, on the rare occasion that it happened lol.. But, I guess I am still a work in progress hahaha.. Hope you have a good day
Smimtten, You are such a beautiful person.. and so sweet.. I am truly honored to be considered your friend.. thank you so much for your kind and comforting words!! Talk to you soon...
RE: why its more fun in the Philippines?
Amazingly beautiful!! Just like you mahal ;)