If you are unable, at the age of 35, to provide for your own food, shelter, and basic needs, then it is highly unlikely that you will find a woman who finds you partner-material.
You have a noble endeavour that you are reaching for? Then achieve by your own merit one step at a time. Anything worth having is worth working hard for.
I had a business meeting in Madrid 10 years ago and had one afternoon free, so I took a quick tour of the Prado.
On the front sidewalk, there were cute watercolor paintings of cats by a local artist. I brought it safely home, put in a lovely frame, and I think of Spain every time I see it.
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