Well dear, You are okay. But try accept yourself! When when we don't accept ourselves it is difficult to be accept by others. It is with you. You dont need to be negative or positive just be. The beauty comes from In not out.
Jeep for you: The sound "I don't know what I saw in here... I don't know where to go.... I don't why I live here... I don't know why am... I don't know where we are going in the world.... I don't know where the world is going in the darkness without direction and I am going together in the darkness without direction...
I know only the world is going to here and beyond ... Waiting a sun that one does not come. Waiting someone that does not come. does not come Each one know all the their choices . and their own tast Each one can with their own power on the sweetness and light be happy"
Lay down on the bed, relax you mind, bory, deeph breath for 2 hours. without any fear. feel yourself. When you did not hear anything outside and your thoughts calm down(stop). You see the darkness the stars come. That's nothing or God. Pure energy
RE: WISDOM???????
Socrates was such lovely guy, despite he did not write, but many guys wrote for him. About moral values is really useful.May be he know and did not mind(about his wife)