GalacticEmperor7 Forum Posts (14)

Unable to Live without Love...

God, I just don't know how much I am supposed to take in life! My ex wife left me abused, broken, and emotionally destroyed eight years ago, then my mother died. Then my grandfather died. Then one of my uncles was crushed in a car accident and one of my aunts died of kidney failure. My stepfather got lung cancer, and my grandmother had a stroke that left her unable to speak right. I am literally alone, where I used to have a whole family that at least was able to cheer me up and make me think that tomorrow would be a better day. I used to be able to go to the local library, and there was this girl there who had a huge crush on me and whom I was deeply in love for a time. But her family and her all moved out of the country, and so she too was taken from me. I've had it! I need someone to come into my life before it is too late. I have so much love to offer, and I fear I'll die alone if no one cares enough to get to know me and love me in return. I keep having my heart broken again and again by women who keep lying to me and hurting me... and I keep getting back up and starting over, again and again. But I can only keep starting over so many times before it is too late. I know that nobody cares about decent men anymore, and probably I'll have to quit this site and look elsewhere... because I'm in so much pain emotionally that I have to keep trying to find love (since that is my dream in life, and all I am currently living for), and if this is not a good place for it then I should not waste precious time here. My heart can only be broken so many times, and in so many ways before it hardens. I don't want my heart to harden! So I'll try for a little while more here, and I'll hope for the best but at the same time I must consider the worst. If it keeps up like it is, I'll move on. I am not mad at this site, nor at anybody in particular. Just at my situation and how frustrated I feel at having been alone for so many years now with seemingly no or little hope. I keep hearing that there is always hope, but right now I need more than hope... I need a miracle that only love can deliver. I know love does not happen overnight, but it has to at least begin in order to happen at all. So far, on this site at the very least, it does not seem to be working out.

Forgive me if I seem so down, but this is the place to talk all about broken hearts... and mine is being tortured more than it can bear. I won't let it destroy me, but I need something solid to give me hope. Not just a dream that I keep praying will come true. Sometimes, prayers just are not enough. Sometimes, I truly wonder if God or anyone even cares. I'm not a bad guy... I just need the right lady to give me a chance. I keep taking chances, myself, but maybe what I need is for someone to care about me as much as I can care about her. It is not a lot to hope for, is it?

In the meantime, I will continue to hope, dream, pray, and stick my neck out in the hopes that love will find me. I have said that I am a hopeless romantic. I guess I just cannot change that.

Farewell for now. Love and Light to all!

RE: what are the real intentions behind Alien´s presence on earth ?

This depends on your definition of what an Alien is! Every religious text and mythology that has ever been and will ever be mentions beings that came down from "on high". According to some beliefs, they were human beings from another world, and all human beings are their descendants. More mainstream beliefs call them angels and gods. Fallen angels are said to have been punished by being made human or cast into Hell. Some Biblical accounts claim Hell is on Earth, and certain esoteric traditions swear it can even be a state of being as much a place. This means that fallen angels are amongst human beings, and most human beings would not be able to tell who they are. My mother, my cousin Carey, and myself all encountered the "fallen angel" Lilith when I was younger and Lilith revealed that I was a fallen angel myself, and that I just did not know it at the time.

Consider the implications. What if some people are really not what we've lived our whole lives thinking we were. It reminds me of the "Final Five" from Battlestar Galactica. Only, there are like thousands of us! It is a crazy, but also sobering thought. The truth is that "Real Aliens" are totally indistinguishable from ordinary people and the myth of the "alien-looking" Alien is kept alive so the gullible will believe the fiction and never suspect the fact since it is too simple. The Devil's greatest trick is pretending to not exist at all. A wise person once said that "truth is stranger than fiction", and that is precisely the case. Which leads us to "Alien" motives.

Lilith was intent on making me "wake up" to what I am, and when I met Lucifer she had the same agenda. We are definitely out there in the world, but what we want depends on who we deal with. We want our kind to realize who and what we are and were, and the most important thing other than that is our imparting of knowledge / wisdom of different "Alien" sorts to people in the hopes of "Illuminating" or "Enlightening" the human race. The "Apple" in the Garden of Eden was really the knowledge of how to become civilized (rather than being naked savages slaving in some supposed God's garden). Lilith and Lucifer were the ones who gave that knowledge to Adam and Eve, and now those two wish to steer mankind towards the future with similar gestures. That is why people connect fallen angels and Aliens to secret societies that talk about "Illumination" and the like. Becuase of similar agendas. I could say more, since my family has a history with the Knights Templar on my grandfather's side as well as a history of paranormal encounters and other strangeness, but instead I'll encourage anyone with a real interest in learning the truth to research Ancient Astronauts and the true meanings behind many of the ancient Sumerian / Babylonian myths and legends. If you go back far enough on certain Sumerian lists of kings and rulers, you'll find many of the oldest generations who were said to have come down from "on high". In Mormon beliefs, there is a planet called Kolob / Kobol said to exist close to where the universe ends and Heaven begins. Some say it is the original home of Adam and Eve (and therefore Humanity). Fallen angels were said to have settled on the planet that no longer exists (between Mars and Jupiter) and to have even colonized Mars before the angel Michael / Marduk got mad and wiped those places out. Hence how that planet became an asteroid belt. That is actually both a Sumerian belief and a Mormon "secret tradition". I know this story very well, since one of my uncles is a Mormon priest. In fact, the dead "Earth" from Battlestar Galactica is supposed to be the missing planet, but before it was obliterated. You'll find many hidden truths in science fiction sometimes. The Matrix for instance is an excellent Gnostic parable. And if all this has your head spinning, just think: it only scratches the surface of what "Real Aliens" are all about.

No need to keep watching the skies. We're already here.

A Paranormal Visitation...

It's 6:00 PM and the world did not end as predicted. I didn't think it would. But one thing I just cannot get out of my head is a paranormal visitation I had the night before last. Given my history with such things, I am not surprised, but it still always shakes me up.

Everything started wednesday night, around 8:00 in the morning. I woke up, turned on the light in my bedroom, and got dressed, preparing for the day. I was on my way into the kitchen to start breakfast, and in my doorway was standing a woman with long black hair down to her feet and glowing red eyes. She was like a living shadow. I was frightened, for this thing looked exactly like one of those creepy little girls from Japanese horror movies like The Ring. This awful ghost walked straight towards me, put out her hand and walked through me, disappearing as she did. She said to me these words: "I am a messenger. Someone is coming to speak with you."

I ignored all this, putting it out of my mind, but the next night on thursday, around 4:00 in the morning, I woke up and I just could not get back to sleep. I turned on a light, got out a book, and started to read. Again, a woman was in my room, but this time it was a pale woman with white skin and short black hair in pageboy style. Her eyes were huge and all black; almond shaped too. She moved her hands in the air and spelled out in words of arcane fire the name Lilith, and I knew it was indeed her. She turned into ethereal white mist and knocked me back unto the bed. (I had stood up when she first had appeared.) She placed a very solid hand to my head and all went black. When I opened my eyes, a beautiful angel with six wings was standing over me. She had platinum blonde hair and green eyes, and said she was Lucifer. Lilith stood next to her, on her left. Lilith grabbed me and brought me before Lucifer, who took me into her arms and said: "Look at me!" and as soon as I looked into her face it changed into a reptillian form that frightened me. "Do you still find me beautiful?" she asked, and I was terrified. She changed back to her beautiful form again and she said to me: "We will not take you with us tonight, brother, but know that you are mine when the time is come. God cannot keep you from me forever!" She then put her palms on my temples and I saw strange visions from the past, the present, and the future. All jumbled together so I could not tell which was which. When this passed, I blacked out again and when I woke up Lucifer was gone and Lilith was hovering right over my bed, looking down on me and smiling. She too had a reptillian form at that point. Her face became like unto a white owl's and then she shot up through the ceiling and disappeared like some ghost. When I walked out into the living room, my grandmother and brother said I was babbling about how the end of the world was not going to come on the 21st like people think but that it was coming on a date known only to God. They said I was extremely happy and even laughing. My brother said he saw a "demonic" look in my eyes and was surprised that I was acting so insanely happy yet looking so "frightening" at the same time. I do not remember the things I apparently said to them, coming to my senses only afterwards. I had no strange visitations since then, and whatever message the "messenger" and the two fallen angels had to deliver I had already spoken and conveyed to my family. I think that so many peoples' belief in the (now proven false) May 21st Rapture prophecy was so strong, that my fallen "sister" decided to pay me a visit and assure me of the truth so I would not be fooled. I must admit, when 6:00 PM rolled around today I was in the best of spirits and had no fear in me whatsoever. I was singing and joking with my brother, and we were all having a lot of fun. Naturally, nothing out of the ordinary happend! So it appears that Lilith and Lucifer were correct in imparting to me the knowledge that this prophecy was to be proven a false one.

RE: Your Dream Job

Well, I'd not mind going back to being an intergalactic tyrant (you knew I'd say that, didn't you!), but for now I'm content with what I do for a living: art for private commissions. The pay is not very consistant, more on a client by client basis, but I don't really know anything I'd enjoy more. I am trying to get some of my written works into mainstream publication (this is stuff I never published online at all) too, and if that works out I'll be even more content career-wise. So, I'd not change too much about what I do for a living, to be totally honest. Until we all find out we're Cylons (I think I already did, in my case anyway), may we all be just as satisfied in what we do and who we are! --- Farewell for now!

RE: Do you believe in an afterlife?

You picked a subject I am intimately familiar with!
I know there is an afterlife, for a fact! As I have told others, when I was 26 I had a severe case of tonselitis that caused my tonsels to swell so large that I choked and stopped breathing from it. I was rushed to the emergency ward at the hospital and my now-ex wife tried to revive me by pounding on my chest and breathing into my mouth while the doctors declared me dead. They saved my life in the end, but during the brief time I was dead, I left my body and entered what people typically call The Light. Here is a link to a poem I wrote, which is a complete account of my journey out of my body to Heaven, to Purgatory, and then to Hell. I even met both God and the Devil. The link is as follows:

Read it to see what sort of things await us in the afterlife.

I was guided through Hell by my spirit guide, a little girl with compeltely silver eyes. And I was saved from the Devil by my guardian angel, who shared a very long and complicated history with me that goes back all the way to the dawn of time. Yes, my soul itself is that old! But that's another story. Be not afraid by anything you read in my account, either! God seems to have the final say over us even when we seem to be damned. People oft tell me I am the modern Dante, because not only am I a poet but I also lived through a trip into the three domains of the worlds beyond this life. One odd fact: not everyone in Heaven appeared to be happy, and not everyone in Hell was there to suffer. Also, many saints were in Purgatory willingly, in order to be closer to the realm of the living and so help people. My patron saints, Saint Cecilia, and Joan of Arc were both there. Also, time had no meaning in Hell. I was there for what seemed like countless long months, but in reality I was only dead for mere minutes. A sobering thought! I learned a lot about myself beyond, including that my beliefs in reincarnation are indeed true, and that the religious experiences I had all my life were not without meaning.

If you want to learn more about my beliefs in reincarnation, see the story I wrote at the following link. It explains who I was in my first life... how I fell from grace... and the reason why I think God sent me to Hell at all. My sin, it seems, was pride. The same as Lucifer and the Devil (they are separate beings, by the way... as you'll learn from reading my writings. If you are not offended by very unusual belief systems, you'll understand well who I am, what I've been through, and what my message is. Here is the link:

Incidentally, God seems to be a Universal Force... rather than a physical being of any kind. Also, the Devil is the spirit of the being once known as Tiamat / Taitan, who was defeated by the archangel Michael / Marduk and became Shaitan / Satan. God is a part of everything in Creation including you, me, and everyone. The Devil tries to imitate God by trying to fill everything in Creation with her darkness (yes, the Devil is a she!), but some sort of Cosmic Balance keeps good and evil / light and darkness from ever becoming too much the one over the other. There is so much more complexity to things than that, but I'm trying to give a brief and understandable explanation without getting too deep.

Lastly, I have never taken drugs, never drank, nor smoked, nor even had a coffe... so what I experienced, I experienced soberly and truthfully. So, if you want the absolute truth (at least as I have experienced it), then look to what I have written. It will answer all your questions about life, death, Heaven, Hell, God, the Devil, and so much more. --- Love and Light, to you!

RE: would you like to talk to an OLD flame 30 plus years later ?

Well, I haven't seen Lilith since the night she seduced me when I was 17, so I think I'd not say no to another such encounter. Yes, THAT Lilith!

RE: say something that might inspire

The best times, are best when remembered. The best memories, are best when shared. - I came up with that when I was only 17.

RE: what songs put you in a good mood

30 songs that never fail to cheer me up and make me smile...

A-Roving, by The Revels
Banana Boat Song, by Harry Belafonte
Drunken Sailor, by The Irish Rovers
Fairy Queen, by Tami Stronach
Girls Just Want to Have Fun, by Cyndi Lauper
Goonies 'R Good Enough, by Cyndi Lauper
Heaven Is a Place on Earth, by Belinda Carlisle
Heavy Metal Pirates, by Alestorm
Holy Diver, by Dio
Iko Iko, by Cyndi Lauper (also by The Belle Stars)
Jump in the line, by Harry Belafonte
Keelhauled, by Alestorm
Like a Prayer, by Madonna
Lovegame, by Lady Gaga
Material Girl by Madonna (also by Hilary and Haylie Duff)
Neverending Story, by Limahl
Nightmare on My Street, by Will Smith
On Top of the World, by The Carpenters
Original Sin, by Meatloaf (also by Taylor Dayne)
Safety Dance, by Men Without Hats
Sailor Song, by Toybox
She Bop, by Cyndi Lauper
Stones, by Kathleen "Gwenno" Watson and David "Iolo" Watson
The Ride of the Valkyries, by Richard Wagner
The Unicorn Song, by The Irish Rovers
The Wallopimg Window Blind, by Natalie Merchant
We are Siamese, by Hilary and Haylie Duff
We Must Believe in Magic, by Crystal Gayle
Why Not, by Hilary Duff
Wind in the Willows, by Blackmore's Night

Knights, Flying Horses, and Sea Turtles!!!

Ok, so tell me if you've heard this one...

A bunch of knights are attacking a castle, but they run out of rocks to throw out of their catapults. The leader of the knights asks his men: "What have we to use for ammunition now, other than rocks?" And they basically have no idea, since they're dumb.

One of the squires suggests: "Why not use the horses, milord?"

And the knights put the horses into the catapults and throw them over the castle walls. Why? I have no idea! Because they'e dumb?
One of the horses flies up into the air and does not come down.

So the defenders order their archers to fire, and these archers are so fast that they can hit a man while he is running at full speed. The only way the knights could have gotten safely away would be upon horseback. So the leader of the knights yells out: "Mount up, men! Upon our noble steeds, we'll escape quick."

But the squite reminds him: "We just shot all our horses over the walls, milord! We've none left at all, to ride away upon."

So the knights start to prance around, pretending to ride away on horseback (making clip-clop noises with their tongues) and soon they are all at the mercy of the archers. Every one of the knights is slain or wounded, and the leader of the knights looks at the squire... who oddly enough is unharmed... and says: "How in the world did we manage to lose? We had them outnumbered!"

And the squire looks at him and asks: "Because we're dumb?"

At which point the leader of the knights is rescued by pirates, who make him their captain beacuse the former captain was killed by one of the falling horses when he visited the castle during the siege. It's a small world, isn't it? And no sooner does the ship pull out to see, but the horse that did not come back down before suddenly comes crashing down into the ship, sinking it. The leader of the knights... now the unlucky captain... can only mutter: "All this, because we were dumb!" and swims away quickly.

Of course, he gets about halfway to shore when he hears that famous music from Jaws. You know the tune! And notices a great white shark swimming after him. Naturally by this time he is no longer wearing his knightly armor or he would sink and drown. So he swims and he swims as fast as he can... and what do you think happens? The horse swims up behind him and he rides it across the water back to shore. Impossible? No, just improbable! You see, sea turtles were helping the horse along. Sea turtles, mate! Sea turtles. The shark, naturally was highly disappointed.

RE: Thor: Seen it? What do you think?

I have yet to see the Thor movie myself, but one shocking bit of news I heard lately regarding comics to movies is about Man of Steel, the new Superman movie. They are actually rehashing the plot of Superman 2 for it, after a fashion! They'll be bringing back General Zod and teaming him with Faora instead of Ursa. What an uninspired choice! I was seriously hoping for Brainiac or Darkseid as the main villain this time around. Seriously, the Phantom Zone villains have been almost as done to death as Lex Luthor. Superman needs something different to clobber for a change. (I swear, if Zod says "Kneel before Zod" again, I might just laugh at the extent to which they ripped off Superman 2!) It could be worse, though... they could have Zod team up with Lex Luthor again. We all know how well that worked out the last time, too. (The least they could do if they ever bring back ol' Lex is to give the man his green, kryptonite-powered battlesuit. At least then he'd stand a chance in a fight against Superman!)

Dark Knight Rises sounds good, though. A younger Ra's Al Ghul is coming back in flashbacks, Catwoman will be a vigilante in it, and Bane will actually be one of the main villains. Bane! The man who broke the Bat. If it's anything like The Dark Knight and Begins, it will complete the trilogy on an intelligent and high note. (I wonder if it will end with Batman's back "accident" and another hero or heroine looking over Gotham while he recovers?)

Personally, I'd love to see a New Gods movie. They say that the Masters of the Universe live action movie from the 80's was very heavily inspired by Jack Kirby's New Gods. It makes sense though when you look at the characters and world depicted in that film!

One marvel villain I'd love to see on the big screen is Thanos the Mad Titan and his Infinity Gauntlet! Pit him against the Avengers, and you'd have one heck of a good reason for that many heroes to band together. Of course, they'll probably go with either Grim Reaper or the Serpent Society as the villains... or something along those lines. Still, though... Thanos will always be one of my favorite marvel supervillains, other than Dotor Doom! He was Death's lover, for Haven's sake... now that's evil.

RE: Thor: Seen it? What do you think?

I grew up reading Thor. My first Thor comic was the issue where Odin and Dormammu were playing Chess. The second issue I bought was the one where Valkyrie went on this epic journey by herself and went through these tests the Three Fates put her through. Epic, and a powerful impression on a young mind hungry for epic tales such as these were. As a teenager, I collected Thor all the way from the Casket of Ancient Winters storyline through Surtr's attack on Asgard to Odin's disappearance which ended with Balder becoming the new ruler of Asgard. His relationship with the Norn Queen, Karnilla was totally romantic for a comic relationship... but I always loved Karnilla and wished it was me she loved. Seriously. (Hey, I was a desperate teenager! Hormones and all that.) At any rate, I continued to read Thor loyally all the way through to the return of Odin and the massive battle between the Asgardian gods and the Egyptian minions of Seth. All on all, I loved it! I own the trade paperback of the Surtr story and I also have the X-Men / Alpha Flight teamup trade papaerback where Loki made the X-Men and Alpha Flight members into true Asgardian gods like him. Epic mischief ensued! I always loved Loki's sense of humor. It was as twisted as mine, seriously. If I was a Thor character, I'd be Loki. but I digress...

I recently bought and played the Thor videogame which I take it is intended as having the movie's characters but not being based on the movie itself. Here is what I know I will love about Thor, the movie, followed by what will definitely make me cringe:

1. Natalie Portman as Thor's mortal love interest. Seriously, I have loved Natalie ever since The Professional and Star Wars, so I know she will deliver a quality performance, as always. And, she is just so beautiful! Even without hair as in V for Vendetta.

2. Anthony Hopkins as Odin. This guy can act! He was fantastic as Hannibal Lecter (his best role ever, hands down), but he can play a nordic ruler very well. I just suspect I will chuckle a bit, remembering how drunk he was as King Hrothgar in Beowulf!

3. Asgard, on the big screen. Seeing the Golden Hall of Valhalla and the Rainbow Bridge in all their glory will be fantastic! Thor as a comic is filled with stunning images that, with the right special effects and CG will be breathtaking to behold. For Asgard! Aye, indeed. As a kid I used to fantasize about living in Asgard and meeting Lorelei, the Enchantress, and of course *sigh* my fair Karnilla. Around the same time I had a huge crush on Starfire from Teen Titans, Amethyst from D.C. comics, and Magik from the New Mutants. Hey, at the time I was 13! Hormones.

4. Epic Battles. Thor is all about epic battles of good against evil. Good is alwyas portrayed as noble and heroic and evil is alwyas just cool enough that you could almost root for the bad guys if the stakes weren't so high for the heroes. I can't wait to see Thor go at it with Loki, and I think the Destroyer armor is involved so that's a plus no Thor fan could say no to.

Now here is what will make me cringe in utter shock and disgust:

Heimdall. By now, you know the controversy surrounding the odd choice of depicting a norse god as a black man. I am sure that the fellow can *act* well enough to portray Heimdall. But it is just the idea that a norse (who were historically never dark-skinned people) god is just not the color he was depicted as in the comics and the myths that inspired them. My problem with this choice is not because of race but because it butchers the source material to do its' own thing. With Nick Fury it was understandable, since in Marvel's Ultimate series Nick Fury is a black man. But Heimdall never was and never will be, so that casting is just all wrong. It is like the casting choices for The Last Airbender. In bad taste.

I can't really think of anything else that would not just be minor nitpicking, so I guess that is all my thougths on the Thor movie.

Reincarnation - My Own Experiences

Since childhood I had past-life memories. In limited space I cannot talk in-depth about them but I can offer links to my writings about this subject while explaining somewhat where I stand religiously, and why I can never consider myself a full Christian even though I know God and Jesus are both real.

1. Reincarnation is Painful
Mot just because of dying and being reborn. It's knowing you messed up and are being punished that rots! In my case, I have bad karma. I started out as the child of a supreme Goddess back in the dawn of time, and as great as that may sound I was exiled so God would not kill me in revenge for my mother stealing power from Him to create me. I ended up angering twelve young gods and goddesses by creating six beings like myself, the seventh being an empty vessel to house my spirit. There was war and the planet we lived on was made a dead world. My faction fled to the Milky Way and the enemy pursued us and destroyed our two colonies there: one on Mars and the other on the planet between Mars and Jupiter. Now an asteroid belt. Eventually, we tried to avenge ourselves but ended up settling on Earth where God decided to punish we who rebelled against his "Chosen Twelve" by making us all human. Truly.

It's been thousands of years after, and I have had many names over the centuries. In Eastern Eurpoe, I was Vlad Dracula, but now I'm just me. I wasn't always a jerk, but I was a jerk in many of my past lives. I like to think I learned from my past, but once a rebel always a rebel. My biggest sin was done before coming to Earth, though. Here is a link to my written account of my first life:

And here is a link to my written account of my life as Dracula:


2. Revelation comes Randomly
How did I learn who I was? I didn't try to learn the meaning behind my memories until I was approached by two fallen angels. Lilith and Lucifer. Seriously! I met them physically, not in any vision or altered state. And I will tell you: I never drank, nor smoked, nor took any drugs. Here are links to my accounts of how I met Lilith and Lucifer, and what went down:
My first encounter with Lucifer (there have been others):

My first and only encoutner with Lilith:


3. Near Death Experiences are Bad
Did I mention I died and went to Hell once? It's true.
And here is the full account of my journey down under:

I nearly died of a severe case of tonselitis in which I stopped breathing and for a moment was declared dead. Here is another related link, to an account of a vision I had not long afer my recovery. I never afterward had another such experience, and I am gald of that! Death is horrible and what lies beyond can be.


So what does all this mean? It means that what we think we know is only the beginning of wisdom, not wisdom itself. If you've been to my links and read what I wrote, you'll know why I cannot call myself a Christian, though I love and respect God highly and think Jesus was a great man with a lot of good to teach mankind. I am pretty much a fallen angel in human form, but I see myself as just a nice guy who has been put through Hell (literally) in life. I hope to find my soulmate, a woman who can understand me... and that's what I am doing here on this site. If what I have said offends anyone I apologize for that but I cannot change what happened to me and the fact that it happened. Let us be compassionate toward one another and respect one another's beliefs... even the weird ones like my beliefs are. (What? I admit they are weird! they are, aren't they? Truth is stranger than fiction, after all.)

RE: is there love in paradise lol

When I was about 26 years old, I had a near death experience. I had tonselitis so bad I stopped breathing and was declared dead for several minutes before my (now ex) wife brought me back by pounding on my chest while the doctors debated what to do. Thank the Goddess for small favors! While I was dead, I passed into the light and here in brief is what I saw on the other side:

Firstly, I went to Heaven and it was this grassy mountainside with columned buildings, inside of which I saw angels looking over a holographic map of the Earth. Human souls came and went. I went over to this cliff topped by a columned archway and there I met the Gnostic Goddess, Sophia who told me I was her firstborn son from a past incarnation. Weird stuff like that. She told me to pass through the pillars and meet God, so I did. God was energy, like a lightning storm, surrounded by dark stormclouds. For one second I connected with His mind and saw flashes of images from all over the universe. Then, a booming voice yelled: ENOUGH! and I was cast down into a deep abyss. I passed through a place I am assuming was Purgatory, a place inhabited by ghosts. Then I was sent even deeper, down into Hell itself. I can hardly describe it in normal human terms. Hell has its' own laws of physics that don't always make sense. Time, distance, and space have no real meaning there. It isn't all dark or fiery, either. And for what seemed like years I wandered there, led by a little girl with silver eyes. My spirit guide. Know what I found in the eighth level of Hell? A literal paradise called Elysium! Where people were genuinely happy. I met an angel there who claimed to be my sister from another life, and we were happy there for a time. I know for fact there can be love in Hell, if not in Heaven, just by what I experienced. I refuse to speak of the ninth level at all. It was cold and terrible, and the Devil was there, though She... yes, the Devil is a She... was not cruel or wicked to me. I sensed she had suffered a lot, and regretted even more. In the end, my angel "sister" took me out of Hell and brought my soul back into my body again. A lot of this is contrary to what the mainstream Christians teach, but it is true. Read some Greek and Roman mythology and you'll hear all about the Elysian Fields at the heart of Hades. I studied all about it after my trip there, and what I read sounds just like what I saw. So yes, there can be love in the hereafter.

The way I see it is this: if God has a problem with people loving one another in Heaven, I'd rather be down in Elysium anyway. So I suppose not everyone in Heaven is happy, and not everyone in Hell is there to suffer. Heaven is for those who are able to embrace God and submit to His will, and Hell is for us rebels who want more out of life and stand for liberty, freedom, and passion. Yes, I count myself amongst the fallen, and I like to think that God respects me for that. Not everyone is as honest with themselves.

If you want to read my fully detailed account of my near death experience, here is a link to it on a website I am a member of:


Just consider me to be the modern-day Dante.

P.S. I know a heck of lot more about the afterlife than I mention here and even in that poem. I just can only explain so much in one place. I hope what I have shared will help others to understand better the nature of the universe around them... and of love, too.

Dodos and Woodchucks and Bears... oh my!

We shall begin this night's madness with the following bit of crazy humor, not entirely authorized in certain sectors of Imperial Space, at least near Kobol and all points east of there.

Part One: The Dodo!!!

Hear the Dodo say two intelligent things! That's right, two for the price of none. What could an extinct bird possibly have to say, you might ask? "Do, and do." That's why it's called a Dodo!

Part Two: Woodchucks!!!

Now, on to the woodchucks! Why? Because it's insane, that's why. And until there's a law against woodchuck jokes I intend to tell them at least once in a while. Now then... "How much wood can a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?" I have no idea in the slightest, do I look like the animal warden to you! Heck no. I fact, on some planets they don't even have woodchucks. They have lizard-like beasts that the serpent-folk keep for pets but no woodchucks. At least they did... until the planet between Mars and Jupiter got blown up by nutty old Marduk when he came by in his Leviathan class space fortress. It's an asteroid belt now, and I can assure you there are neither lizards nor furry chuckers of wood living on any of those rocks. Anyhow...

Part Three: Bears!!! Oh My!!!

During my exile on planet Earth... drat and curses be on those Loyal Officers of Marduk for all eternity... I have learned one thing above all: beware of the bear. Yes, the bear! Why? Because being the outdoorsy type, I have spent a lot of time in woods, mountains, and other such places. And there are bears living in such places, as any moron clearly could tell you. But since no moron is here except for the woodchuck and the lizard... it falls to me to explain what makes the bear so dangerous. Here we go: imagine if you will a camp site in the woods. Campers always bring food, and they never think to dispose of it properly. So the inevitable happens: alone comes the bear. He smells some of the honey this one group of idiots... I mean campers... has been putting on their bread. Okay, maybe it was jelly, but to the dumb bear it may as well be honey! So here he comes. Crud! Get the heck out of there you idiots... I mean, campers! Ah well, too slow. See the cute bear, kids! Oh look, he has blood all over his paws... claws, actually. Don't look, kids. It's just too traumatic at your age. Somebody call Ranger Jones and tell him to leave that stupid furry sidekick of his home this time!

Part Four: This is SPARTA!!! I mean KOBOL!!! I mean EARTH!!!

So here we have Dodos, Woodchucks, and Bears... oh my! And before you could say "The Galactic Emperor is my Homeboy!" the critters have gotten loose with more ease than the Joker when he escapes from Arkham Asylum. Seriously, his girlfriend used to work there... of course she knows how to get him out! If Batman is such a great detective how come he never thought of that? I'd arrest Harley Quinn in two seconds if I were him... and I would search her thoroughly too because she's hot and I'm desperate. And probably crazy enough to be appealing to her. Did I mention I shaved my beard and dressed up as the Joker for Halloween one year? Another year, I went as Freddy Krueger. Because that's how I roll. I couldn't go as myself though, because that would be too frightening for anyone who isn't a Fallen Angel, an exiled Lord of Kobol, or a Sith. I'm actually all three of those things but we're not here to discuss religion, politics, or anything but mad, insane, humor! Madness, did I just say? Yes, these jokes are all madness... but since THIS IS SPARTA!!! that's okay.

Now I must take a bow and catch the next shuttle back to Kobol for awhile. See you next time, and remember: A Dodo can only say two intelligent things. Do, and do. That's why it's a Dodo silly!