O.K. FRIENDS, THIS IS A ROUGH ONE FOR ME TO DISCUSS BUT THE TIME HAS COME AGAIN, I am ready to share I hope.
First you should understand a bit about me, I come from a past abusive relationship mentally that is and I have been five or six yrs getting past it I will never be over it, I think it is the hardest thing I ever went through and probalby should of seeked counceling and did not soo here I have low self esteem about me and my weight issues are around my past relationship.
So I eventually decided to be brave and join a dating site or two so that I could maybe meet or talk to someone and I did, we correspaonded daily by email for about a month and talked on the phone a few times. He told me he was head over heels so to speak for me I was very skeptical about this and not to trusting at first than all of a sudden it hit me and I realized I kinda had a thing for him as well so as a result we continued back and fourth than all of a sudden I heard nothing from him (I realize this is very common)
So he stopped writing and calling never heard from him no answer my emails nothing he lives in Calafornia and I am in Nova Scotia, so we have not met face to face. My point is I was really upset that he disappeared no explanation no nothing. About a month ago he started senden net flowers to me and eventually I got a email..
Now tonight I received an email and it told me it was not me it was him and he did not expect me to wait around for him and understands why I am mad and hurt. The point being is I am not mad but defenately hurt I am very soft hearted. I really almost deleted my profile until I started yacken on the forums.
The thing that scares me is that I still care and probabley should not and I do not know how to stop carrying. Please tell me how to stop and move past this, surely it is obvious waste of my time but I cannot help how I felt. I have started to meet lots of friends here and defenately given up on relationships.
Advice please go easy on me I have a dungeon to tend to.
well in the original photo I had my hair red as I was standing in a wedding wearing cranberry dress lol.
In my fancy pictures my hair is my own colour and streaked white.
Currently my hair is a light to medium brown. that is the styles i usually always have my hair when I am goen out somewheres but I much prefer to go natural looking as I cannot wear make up to work and get all done up I have twenty three male mentally challenged clients and have never put myself above or below them so I need to try and fit in. lol. and i am more comfortable.
I hate pictures and I think a large part of that is because I am overweight and very self concious about it I also hate mirrors and prefer to do my makeup without a mirror but by feel took alot of practice but i can do it with only one quick check to the mirror. lol
I do not consider myself pretty I think it was just a very good photographer but thanks for the compliments.
well in the original photo I had my hair red as I was standing in a wedding wearing cranberry dress lol.
In my fancy pictures my hair is my own colour and streaked white.
Currently my hair is a light to medium brown. that is the styles i usually always have my hair when I am goen out somewheres but I much prefer to go natural looking as I cannot wear make up to work and get all done up I have twenty three male mentally challenged clients and have never put myself above or below them so I need to try and fit in. lol. and i am more comfortable.
I hate pictures and I think a large part of that is because I am overweight and very self concious about it I also hate mirrors and prefer to do my makeup without a mirror but by feel took alot of practice but i can do it with only one quick check to the mirror. lol
I do not consider myself pretty I think it was just a very good photographer but thanks for the compliments.
well len i told you if you choked the chicken everything would be just fine.
Although i am very sad you all have someone now and leaving me still single even Rob is hiding. traders even Christina and Jess, Stebon and hotlips, Terrance.
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Advice Please, Met someone who DEVASTATED me and I still care, read my story.
O.K. FRIENDS, THIS IS A ROUGH ONE FOR ME TO DISCUSS BUT THE TIME HAS COME AGAIN, I am ready to share I hope.First you should understand a bit about me, I come from a past abusive relationship mentally that is and I have been five or six yrs getting past it I will never be over it, I think it is the hardest thing I ever went through and probalby should of seeked counceling and did not soo here I have low self esteem about me and my weight issues are around my past relationship.
So I eventually decided to be brave and join a dating site or two so that I could maybe meet or talk to someone and I did, we correspaonded daily by email for about a month and talked on the phone a few times. He told me he was head over heels so to speak for me I was very skeptical about this and not to trusting at first than all of a sudden it hit me and I realized I kinda had a thing for him as well so as a result we continued back and fourth than all of a sudden I heard nothing from him (I realize this is very common)
So he stopped writing and calling never heard from him no answer my emails nothing he lives in Calafornia and I am in Nova Scotia, so we have not met face to face. My point is I was really upset that he disappeared no explanation no nothing. About a month ago he started senden net flowers to me and eventually I got a email..
Now tonight I received an email and it told me it was not me it was him and he did not expect me to wait around for him and understands why I am mad and hurt. The point being is I am not mad but defenately hurt I am very soft hearted. I really almost deleted my profile until I started yacken on the forums.
The thing that scares me is that I still care and probabley should not and I do not know how to stop carrying. Please tell me how to stop and move past this, surely it is obvious waste of my time but I cannot help how I felt. I have started to meet lots of friends here and defenately given up on relationships.
Advice please go easy on me I have a dungeon to tend to.