You are right Whitehorse. I am not knowing anything at all about what you have done or what you are in life, only about what you are writing in your posts.
I have looked at many the profiles and postings of many men on this website and I always feel very sad when I read your postings because you are not well in how you are thinking and what you are thinking.
I think for you that you are so lonely and unhappy and have many time on your hands so for you then, any attention is good attention even if you make fool of yourself to get such attention.
I have made sure to travel alone to another country at least once a year since the age of 16. I think I would go mad if I didn't. I spend the majority of my life with people, working, living, loving, laughing. A little bit of time on my own allows me to rejuvenate. I travel a lot actually, but I tend to meet and mingle with the people of a land more when I am on my own. It takes me out of my comfort zone when I am alone in a restaurant or museum or on the street and forces me to really see who I am and what I am made of. I am lucky though in that I have never encountered hostility or extremely negative peeps.
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You are right Whitehorse. I am not knowing anything at all about what you have done or what you are in life, only about what you are writing in your posts.On that, apologies and wishing you happiness.
C.