sdrar Poetry (3)

I remember a person that was kind and giving..
a happy person..living each day saying life
was for living.
Time and life; and with expectation dulled blunt
The once shining eyes dulled slowly..
then sunk.
Do it now... you people..experience it all.
jump for the joy;ignoring the fall.
For you will look back as your eyes dull too,
and wish that it all had happened to you.

Go to your God gleefully chanting.... 'I TRIED'
and not to your grave...your last words....I Cried.

Today I thought
What if I tried again.
Ive nothing to lose..
Can I love again?
Even though it hurts?

Alone does not suit me
Solitude is not my thing.

Never thought I would write again
I was wrong on this..too.
Cannot be bad
Even though it is.:)

My many memories come to haunt... in sleepful hours
I lie awake..to think.. reflect.. and wish
Somehow..I could change it..and start again.
Sins are hard to forgive...I have hurt you..
I am sorry..so sorry..you were always true.
Needing me always more than I ever needed you
God help me..I need you now.
Mother...I am sorry..I lost the script
Every day I miss you...and then I miss me.