L00k1n4Luv Poetry (17)

if there were a day i could say the way i truly feel inside.
then, that day - could i say? having love, when separate minds collide.
emotions are over coming, when you love someone so loving.
are these real? will they last? i want to know, of course they will. they'll grow.

is there another way i can tell you the way it is i feel?
constant loving feelings, i miss you, want you, i love your appeal.
if there were a way you could stay. hold me then, all night and all day.
that's what i would like, for you to be here and never disappear.

i was looking for love. i found it. happy i didn't give up.
you are my blood in my veins, sparkle in my eyes, light of my day.
you are my blind spot which i can not see, please remove it for me.
i want to see as much as i can. if not one hundred percent.

the world it suffers as it turns to face the sun.
light and heat warms up the death and the living ones.
dark filled hearts want to kill as they turn from cops to run.
cross fire everywhere they're hit now falls their guns.

die because you will.
kill because you can.
die because you've killed.
kill because you will.

the world it suffers as it turns to face the moon.
cold dark night it's too tempting to kill more but who?
light filled hearts all of them victims and probably soon.
they'll be slayed after they finally meet their doom.

fighting the world and all its glory.
wishing for the living to tell a true story.
hoping for the dead to live once again.
living for the dying is nothing but a sin.
what is the reason for them all to live?
are they able to vouch in what they want to give?
what do they have to believe in right now?
do they believe in god and the heavens up in the clouds?

hades, hate us.we are nothing.
heaven, love us.we are something.
but what is truth? i can't tell you.
cause i don't care.what's the truth for you?

watching the world displace its future.
under the eyes of all the lost, living creatures.
burning the forests faster than we can breathe.
seeing them running in circles so helplessly.
are we so stupid to realize the truth?
why are the humans so controlling and cruel?
what we need is an omnipotent djinn.
then maybe this world can finish or even begin.

hades, hate us.we are nothing.
heaven, love us.we are something.
but what is truth? i can't tell you.
cause i don't care.what's the truth for you?

wasting the world of all its worries.
many people contributing to its fury.
sucking out the last of its living life.
sooner or later going to explode and die.
then there wouldn't be a heaven or hell.
for anyone to go to, believe in, or tell.
so do you still believe in your self now?
do you believe in god and the heavens up in the clouds?

destroy the living for the dying.
the happy people are still crying.
hearing forgiving fibbers lying.
watching forgotten people dying.
helpless as we are, we're still trying.
secret happenings they're still hiding.
darkness through blackness, it's so blinding.
gruesome thoughts, memories i'm finding.

falling into the words of the wise.
some are truth but most are lies.

broaden the mindless dumba** acting.
lucid becoming flabbergasting.
peril of asking, no contrasting.
wondering if they're knowledge fasting.
controlling actions, if not, blasting.
followers waiting, but they're basking.
lusting for nothing, so relaxing.
destroy the world and all its factions.

it's you who needs a clue.
to be able to eat and chew.
able to swallow and grow.
create an appetite to blow.
able to be concerned.
of what you know and what you learned.
it's not a question of why?
this problem is all in the mind.

it's me who needs a peek.
to be able to run and be.
able to complain and cheat.
wondering why apathy so bleak.
able to be confused.
of how i live and why refuse?
cause this way i stay one way.
skinny, nauseous, dumb to say weight.

opening my eyes from a long deep sleep
falling back to blackness where i want to be
listening for that voice which controls my every choice
lost and wary i take another step towards everlasting - belief
opening my eyes from a darkness so blind
light fills up the hole and washes out whats inside
now theres nothing left for anyone to find
except the light and damn is it ever bright

would you shed a tear for the hole in our atmosphere?
or maybe a tear for that minimum wage job no career?
how about a stain in your carpet from the wine?
or a seeing eye dog's shit below the foot of the blind?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for vigilantes lack of rules?
or maybe a tear for that moldy poor excuse of a school?
how about a millionaire's never ending greed?
or a world that cares and everything you see is free?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for all thats lost and now is found?
or maybe a tear for that ex-girlfriend on the rebound?
how about a present boyfriend with a small d*ck?
or a bulimic head cheerleader makes herself be sick?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for smash crash seven years bad luck?
or maybe a tear for that lottery winner hit by a truck?
how about a crazy f*cked up loser on meth?
or a beached killer whale's last inhale exhale-less breath?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for creative witty finesse?
or maybe a tear for that guy whom feels he's better then the rest?
how about a really quick but painful release?
or a person close to a heart attack and doesn't think their obese?

would you shed a tear for our global pollution?
or maybe a tear for that mad man in an institution?
how about a victim's pig brutality?
or the world's obsessive desire to chop trees?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for homophobe's pathetic fears?
or maybe a tear for that paranoia cuz no one's there?
how about a loss of hearing, sight, and thinking?
or an awful vocalist's tone def attempt at singing?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for planes crashing to the ground?
or maybe a tear for that murdered body some kid found?
how about a fav teacher's nervous breakdown?
or a bride's trip in a puddle muddy wedding gown?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for diseases never cured?
or maybe a tear for that tragic painful first degree burns?
how about a useless pointless waste of your time?
or a misunderstanding over your head punchline?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for too much food no excercise?
or maybe a tear for that mutual partner's compromise?
how about a brutal bloody death of your foe?
or a bunch of houses destroyed from a volcano's flow?

would you shed a tear for that 3 legged puppy?
or maybe a tear for that rich diseased infested yuppy?
how about a would be mother's dead baby?
or the poor little girl's pet that has rabies?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for a widow's lost husband?
or maybe a tear for an ugly kid which was bully winded?
how about a lying prick telling the truth?
or today's problem no giving all taking youth?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for most Canadian flicks?
or maybe a tear for that cash poisoned sellout music?
how about a dying man's "kill me" last wish?
or that joyful two week vacation accomplished?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for ten million reasons?
or maybe a tear for that homeless bright teenage bum freezin?
how about an ended knowing last caress?
or a monday mourning groggy a** surprise test?
would you shed a tear?

would you shed a tear for an unwanted child?
or maybe a tear for that animal slain in the wild?
how about an addict trying to break free?
or black and purple beatings the public never seen?

One day soon there will be a feeling.
Of partial loss and constant stealing.
One day late it will have no reason.
To be its self without even being.
Even after the constant laughter.
The humiliation grows even louder.
Total loss of the sense of sorrow.
Forget disconcluded breathing borrowed.

Here's my heart. Just take it.
Crush it with your foot or smash it on the rocks.
Crack it like an egg or cut it up with a knife and feed it to the dogs.
It doesn't matter. I don't need it anymore.

As long as it gets you to where you want to go and back,
there should be no need to complain.
Unless your a stupid little spoiled brat and you want it no other way.
In that case, perhaps it's not your fault and your parents are to blame.
Giving you everything that you ever wanted when need was the obvious game to play.
Now look at you. your a fat slob with a credit card provided by fake tears of "don't you love me anymore?" you'd say.
But i know the truth. I know the real you. And your lies won't ever work with me. Because don't you understand? I'm not your friend and will never be. I'm your enemy. I want you dead. But not by my hands.
I want to watch you die very slowly and painfully and at the peak of unbearable agony I'd say......"I love you" just to cause you more pain.
Flashes of images and thoughts would enter your mind. All of this time you'd falsely realize that I'm your one true love. The one you'd want to be with and pass on a million kisses and even more hugs.
And at this critical moment where your blinking your last blink. And breathing your last breath I'd do it. I'd finally say......I'm ecstatic that your dying and I'll tell you my true name. Hello and goodbye. My name is death.