CrystalMethod Poetry (2)

Not the same
Now that he's gone.
Not the same
without his love.
It's like I'm empty inside
I just wanna crowl and die.

Why did you leave me?
If you was all I ever had
Why did you abandoned me?
When i needed you by my side.

Sometime ago...
Don't remember when...
I tried to end myself...

Almost succeded...
But outside intervention prevented
my goal to be fullfilled.

I was brought back
Against my will
To a world and to a life I did not chose.
And for which i do not care.

For the few minutes I was down
I was truly happy
Wherever I was
Between this world and the other one
I was happy, content.
I knew everyone I cared about was allright.

Is this loud and bright world
that is true hell for me.
THIS is hell.