I Promised, I’ll Never Leave You
A little voice of yours makes me feel alive
A little hug of yours makes me feel happy
A little care of yours makes me feel perfect
A little love of yours makes me feel Complete
And a little ignorance of yours kills me inside
I find my reason for living in those moments
Which I have spent in your care, with you
Now whatever pain I may get
I will Never Regret Loving You
I met somebody here 1,5 years ago, an Irish guy. We had a lovely relationship. When I had a fought with my cancer, I told him that I'm not forced him to stay, he deserved to be happy but he insist to stay. And suddenly he ask me to step into "married" life. I was think in that time that he only joking to cheers me up but he's serious.
We had plan on it that this year we will do that. But suddenly last month after valentine day, Irish woman bombarding me with messages that she had slept with my boyfriend. I check on her, and guess what she's married woman and has 3 kids and still live with her husband. She said she contact me cause she's pregnant and she's grieving (I'm not sure what the meaning of grieving cause Irish English has a different meaning) about the baby. I confronted him and he admit it happen in 2011 before I'm with him. I'm not angry just sad with heart broken, but I accept that human made a mistakes sometimes so do I. He said he knew he made a mistakes and have to gain my trust and he will prove it to me that its not gonna happen again. And we still continue our plan.
A week later, when I thought everything was over, that woman contact me again and said that she's pregnant and don't want me to tell my boyfriend. I asked her when she last time slept with my boyfriend and she said October last year. I asked her again how can she sure that its my boyfriend baby and she said she only slept with my boyfriend. I confronted my boyfriend again and he's so angry with that woman. Once again he insist to stay with me.
Gosh, I'm so confuse now. I love him to a bit and I ever promised that I will not said goodbye or leave him unless he's the one who said that. But I can't trust anybody now, not him or that woman.
I tried to make my boyfriend angry and said that I still in this site and another Irish guy like me too but I broke his heart. I told him that I made a lot of contact with guys to make he angry and leave me but he not angry at all. I don't know what to do now. I know its up to me but I can't think anymore. Please give me advice
This good story posted by one of members The Amazing Race at FB, I just re-post here.
Married or not you should read this...“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
To the lovers that have us and to the losers that lost us, we thank you for making us who we are today and we are stronger because of it.
Where are you that my heart long for you,
My lips are dry,
They want to kiss you
My eyes are dime
They want to see you.
I wish my eyes could speak
What my heart feel for you.
My lips could lie on what is true
but my eyes can never
because when I close them,
I can still see you.
I can't stop thinking of you
Because you’re special
I want to touch and hold you tight
I want to call you my prince,
My love and my everything.
The joy of my life and the love of my dreams.
No, you’re right.
I mistook our endless conversations,
Your sweet texts,
The compliments,
And our amazing moments for you liking me.
My bad.
Maybe I’m over.
Maybe I’ve moved on.
Maybe I like someone else.
But maybe,
I’m just a good liar.
My time has come,
And so I’m gone.
To a better place, far beyond.
I love you all as you can see.
But its better now,
Because I’m free.
Last week, I met this guy from this site and he’s foreigner. I agreed to meet him and go for lunch cause we live in same area apartment but different building tower. While the lunch, another woman come and wait for to go out with him. And I know for sure that this woman like him very much from her eyes while I talked with this guy ( woman radar )
Later that day, he called me and said want to meet me again, but I felt guilty to this woman cause he already meet her family. I told him about that. And he said this woman just a friend, he tried to have connection with this woman but this woman protect her self. He also said, his happiness don’t depends on this woman, he have right to create his own happiness ( yes, its true remain he’s 57 now )
I sent the signal that I don’t want be the woman who steal a guy that other woman liked. I know how its hurt like hell. Each time he called me or send sms, I already mention her name. But he keep with his own opinion and still chasing me.
What should I do? I believe in “Karma” what goes around come back around, and I told him too about that. I don’t want to hurt anybody.
I don’t want to be rude too to this guy cause I concern about his health too, he’s has a high blood pressure and do treatment too while in here. I don’t know how to do now,
how to reject him without hurt him. Any suggestion for me?
Distance makes me miss you!!!
I may not always stay in touch
But I care for you very much.
I may not always stop by to say hi
But I hope to never have to say goodbye.
I may not prove to be the perfect friend
But I hope the friendship we share never reaches an end.
Love you a lots like polka dots
Even more than vodka shots
You’re my friend till the end.
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Its still 8 am and I'm so sleepy
, help me a lot
. And thank you for being my blogger best friend here. I hope and pray all the best for you. 
