I realized I will never meet anyone if I stay here.
Blogs and forums are very distracting and I spend too much time here. I even started enjoying chatting more than replying to messages and that's alarming!
The site is full of fake profiles and lately I cannot figure out who's genuine any more.
Thanks to you and my last blog I realized what I really want, so somehow I think I will not get it here.
Apart from fake profiles, there are too many people 'looking for fun' and serious ones I met... well, I don't like them that much.
Maybe it's better to join a site for dating only, without forum, blogs, games, etc. and other features that distract a person from his/her primary goal.
I hope you'll have fun and meet your soulmate here.
See you somewhere else in the cyber space!
For years you've been trying to meet a man you would like and you would have a certain type of relationship with. But all men you meet are either:
1) men you like, but they want a different type of relationship
2) men you don't like, but they want the same type of relationship
You do the following:
1) start dating men you like, but since the type of relationship isn't the one you're are happy with, you become more and more unhappy as the relationship develops and in the end you have to finish it (usually feeling completely miserable). During the relationship you try either to adapt and accept the unwanted relationship or to wait and hope that the other person will change, but since neither you can change yourself nor the other person, in the end you have to give up of both
2) start dating men you don't like, compensating that with being happy with the type of relationship you are in. But it's hard to be intimate with the man you dislike physically and you feel like pretending all the time if you don't like him as a person or have a little in common with him. You start loosing yourself little by little, becoming more and more unhappy with yourself and your partner and in the end finish the relationship feeling even more miserable than after finishing the first type of relationship
3) staying alone and searching for a man who will match your criteria. You meet a lot of men, but all of them belong either to one of the mentioned groups or you dislike both them and the type of relationship they would like
You seem not to be able to find the right man and you get more and more scared of starting another one of described relationships knowing they will end with you (and sometimes your partner) feeling miserable. You also start to get tired of 'promising beginnings' that turn out not to be that promising at all. Sometimes men lie, other times you lie yourself because you want to believe so much that you finally found what you're looking for.
You start to consider giving up of trying to meet someone and staying alone doing other things in your life. If the right man comes to your way - great, if he doesn't - doesn't matter - there are so many nice things to experience apart from having a happy relationship with someone. That's such a healthy attitude, but...
Having a happy relationship was always a very important part of your life. Maybe it has something to do with you being raised in an incomplete family, maybe it's completely personal. You don't want to be alone for the rest of your life because that also means being unhappy, maybe a little less than staying in an unsatisfactory relationship.
You start thinking that maybe it's not for everyone meant to have a happy relationship, no matter how hard (s)he tries, the same as some people can't be singers or good at mathematics or successful business persons, no matter what they do. Maybe you should accept your fate? Is it better to be unhappy by giving up or by trying and getting disappointed?
What if you give up and then meet the right person, but since you gave up, you don't recognize him and don't value what you can have with him any more? And maybe again lose the opportunity to be happy? If you get satisfied with life with no love, could you ever come back to appreciating love if it comes your way?
What are your opinions on this subject? Suggestions? What is the right thing to do?
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