Greetings to each and everyone. It’s been a while since I posted a blog. I am just lurking around reading (when my boss is not watching, lolz). So, how is everybody doing? Oh by the way, it’s me Shay (to those who knew me already and those who don’t, ?)
Looking back for the last year 2013, it has been I would say okay. I am still away from home working (used to it already), minding the “singleness” once in a while, depressed sometimes (I will dwell on that part later), smiling at times, over all fine. Life must go on.
So what’s making me depressed? Oh, a couple of events lately. I have this feeling of getting a bit lonely when the Christmas season comes for few obvious reasons. To add more to the sadness, the loss of a beloved 19 year old brother 37 days ago. It is so sudden I cannot fathom how upsetting it is to lose someone very, very dear to my heart in an untimely manner. Accidents do happen, and that caused my brother’s death. It is more maddening because I haven’t seen him for the last time due to couple of unavoidable circumstances. I mourned (and still am, in silence), I keep people away from me for weeks already but I am sure I didn’t ignore those who stayed with me through those times, and thank them to be sensitive enough to understand what I am going through.
Do I have the right to feel depress? Yes, I do. And the person to have an open mind and sensitive (and so he claims he is) who I expected to understand me did not. He’s got his selfish reasons rubbed on my face and he said I bring negative energy in his life. I say, Good riddance.
I am too vulnerable these days, but I am trying my very best to get going again. I am lucky to have family and friends on my side (though not physically).
PS: I do not intend to get you upset in a supposed to be merry days.
Kumusta (Hello). xoxoxo
Everyone I know is either making it officially in a relationship, growing stronger, getting married or having a new baby. I am happy for them.
I am wondering what is it great will happen to me. I'm very hopeful.:-)
Not about fancy cars but about having someone, a partner in life. A few of the men I talked have this idea. I do not have the full grasp about the matter. In my little understanding, its like testing the water if its too deep, hot or cold. Not for me though. (But stand may change according to circumstance).
Individual's choice that is.
Is there also like a matter of how frequent and how long the test drive would last before someone could say, "Its enough?
I have chatted to a friend I met personally few years ago. We joke about our ages. Why he was born too early and I am, too late,
Then came to the subject of marriage. He had serious relationships before and that he thought to get married also, nearly. But then he answered, "I was inspired by the movie Four Weddings and a Funeral".
Hmm, maybe I'll have to go watch that movie one more time. Forgot the plot.
And I thought maybe he don't believe in marriage. Do you?
When a relationship ended, two people go on with their lives, into different directions wherever that maybe. How hard the ending had hit them, individuals deal with break up differently. Some will still be hoping for love to come back, while others do move on easily (was what the protrayal, but deep inside they are hurting and have difficulty letting go). That's the case for those ending that both of the involved individuals know that the relationship is finish, done.
For those that disappeared without the proper goodbye ... even just a simple telling "Sorry, I can't stay. I'm going to somewhere and I am not taking you." Would it be better to let the other person know that you are leaving, not just keep her/him wondering what had happened. Why no word? Trying not to hurt? I think no. Its an act of selfishness.
Yes, I am new here! .... Okay, NOT!
The blogs has been a bit quiet lately (not complaining, just an observation).
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