when fear counts your heart beat
when tears are an incessant flow
when hope has left you in despair
when you are so tired, like the dead
when love ends in betrayal
when hate keeps its sting on you
when a friend rejects
when an enemy strikes
when your breath turns into gasps
when your eyes are blinded in pain
when there is no way ahead
when all doors are shut
when there are no windows even
when the sun blazes furiously hot
when not one clouds floats by
when the sky is dead black
when the stars hurt by shining so bright
when the air itself is so still it stifles
when you are spent out to the bone
when you are cold and all alone
when there is no cheer nor comfort
when you have hit rock bottom, laid out
when mind is buffeted around
when your heart is stops in frozenness
when your life is a void
when you cant remember the time you smiled
when dreams wake you in their grotesqueness
when the ache is dull unceasing
when every one has abandoned you
when panic flows thru your veins
when grief chills your blood
when you in a corner shrieking
when you know inside you're dead
Then you let go----
then you start to see around
then you look at people suffering
then you tend a bird's broken wing
then you drag yourself to reach out
then you learn the art of giving
then you have to begin to forgive
then you want to turn towards light
then you see shadows slinking away
then you look for the chinks in the shut doors
then you watch out for the stars in the day light
then you receive moonlight on your face
then you welcome twilight with a smile
then you grow inside your heart a flower
then one by one you put back your pieces
then you care enough to want a warm clasp
then you give up the emptiness
then you accept the inevitable
then you learn not to expect anything
then you start to play your appointed role
then you realize that you can understand everything
then when you do that,
you let it all go its own way
bow your life away in submission to the ONE.
its quite impossible to describe one's self. i won't even try
But..
its not about dancing in the rain...in the lash of lightning blinded by its light...drenched in rain...enshrined in this cosmic temple... flying up kissing the littlest star..Receiving moon's glory on my face.. merging into the hues of twilight sometimes crimson sometimes even white.. swiftly flying away from sun's orange scorching.. snuggling in grey clouds..flying into the rush of streams then fall with its gush...caressing a petal all velvet mauve. singing along inside.. in tune.. in a full throat-ed bird's breast overflowing bursting.... into a symphony all silver and light...
ever in fervent obeisance... in adoration to the Creator
to be blessed with the gift of sight.... ah!
giniwinn Blog (3)
The neighbour’s child opposite my window in a high shrill voice memorizes nursery rhymes he went first with Jack n Jill quite well till it came to fetch a pail somehow the fetch became ketch my mind in wonder Jill doused in ketchup jack with a fork, knife… jack the cannibal? Snow white came next the grumpy dwarf became warf. Barking softly doggie...Cinderella’s slipper was now a chipper I thought the boy certainly thinks in rhymes when jump over the moon came jump was lump I resorted to medical assistance lump in moon benign hopefully for earthlings. Did this boy know he was changing pulping scrambling my thought process?