Its Friday, the weekend is here, I shoukld be in a good mood but I am not.
I have been on internet dating sites for nearly 2 years....been on a few dtes, looking for the elusive Man who is right for me.
I met him in January of this year, and although he lived some distance away we started a relationship.....we got on so well, had lots in common and the important Spark was there.....he was everything I had been looking for...and he appeared to feel the same. Phoning me up to 3 times a day, chatting on line and meeting up every week.....I was falling in love.....at 55.....and it felt good.
3 weeks ago, his Mum died suddenly, she had had a fall and was taken to hospital, she died the next day. He was devastated. There had to be an inquest which delayed the funeral, which has now taken place.
He has shut me out, completely......he says he does not want to talk about it, or to socialise with anyone.....he is even struggling to spend time with his teenage daughter.
I tried to offer support to him in any way I could, but he refused.....and now its as if I never existed...He says maybe we will speak again in the future, when he gets his head right. He is depressed and has taken time to see his doctor.
I have given him some space, and text him maybe once a week to say that I am thinking of him. He does not reply!
Earlier this week, I saw him on line, it surprised me to say the least! What was he doing there? I have friends on line that I chat to which he knows......I wanted so much to message him, but restrained myself in respect of his wishes....
All I cn think now is that he either prefers to talk to strangers rather than to me, someone who I thought was getting close to him, or it has all been a fabrication and he it was his way of telling me he no longer wishes to see me. I don't think he would make up such a story.....but I cannot understand why he has shut me out with such finality......and in the process has broken my heart......I have been single for over 5 years and was caustious about dating.......this has set me back and upset me so much. I wonder if he stopped to think how much it would hurt me!!!
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