I've never been the marrying type,and I've told everyone that I'll never get married.But lately I've been going back and fourth on this issue.On one hand it'll be awesome to get engaged then get married.I would love to get married in my parents' backyard.They live in the country and have a huge backyard.I apsolutely refuse to get married in a church as I don't believe in religion.
On the other hand I feel that marriage would take away so much of my freedom.Iam such a freespirit and very independent.Iam set in my ways.Marriage is a huge committment,a lifelong committment.Would I still have as much freedom being married as I had when I was single or dating?
I've been in a common-law relationship once and that was a huge disaster.I'd hate to go through something that painful and dramatic again!So much hurt,anger,insults,and heartache.To be honest,I wasn't ready for a common-law relationship,and prior to us living together we had been living with my parents.They decided that it was time for my boyfriend and I to leave the nest even though I wasn't ready to have a common-law relationship yet.
My ex brought up marriage all the time,pressuring me to marry him someday,even though I told him that I didn't want to get married.In other words,he wanted marriage,I didn't.
But he wasn't the "one" obviously or else we'd still be together.Perhaps when I find the right guy I'll change my mind about marriage.Until then,I'll continue to struggle with the issue of whether or not I want to get married.
I have said things so stupid that it's hilarious.
Last summer my parents and I went boating and I was looking for bald eagles and other wildlife.We saw a bald eagle to my delight and I took out my camera hoping to take some pictures of a bald eagle.
I noticed something in the sky flying towards us.Here's where I had the mother of all blonde moments.As soon as I saw the object in the sky I yelled out "look at the huge bald eagle!"To my embarrassment that "bald eagle" turned out to be an airplane flying really low!My parents almost died laughing,and my mom still hasn't let me live this down.
Back in 1998 I was visiting my paternal grandma for two weeks as I always did every summer.I had two major blonde moments during that visit.
One afternoon,my grandma,my mom and I went shopping.I can't remember what we were talking about but I sure remember the idiotic comment I made and I quote "Well,Grandma is my dad's wife!" My mom and grandma laughed really hard and I felt like a fool even though I was laughing.
Then,on the day I was going home,my grandma and I were packing my stuff.Grandma holds up a bag and asks me where I want to put it.I said "Oh,it'll go in the trunk with me!" Everyone burst out laughing and my grandma laughed so hard she was crying.
I was glad to have made Grandma laugh so hard as she had been quite depressed due to her medical problems.Even so,I wasn't planning on saying something so stupid-it just popped out of my mouth!
Well,I guess I took after Grandma as she had more than her share of blonde moments.
I've had a lot of bad times this year so far,mainly struggling with the severe depression that's been plaguing me in the last few weeks.
But Iam slowly feeling better and am now focused on all the wonderful things I have to look forward to.
Spring is almost here and the weather has been very mild and beautiful.Before long all this snow will be gone.
I'll be reaching a new milestone in three months,though Iam not too happy about it.I will be turning thirty but I asked my parents to throw me a big party.That should cheer me up and also be a lot of fun.
This summer,my mom,my aunt,and I are going to Nova Scotia for a family reunion.We're still trying to convince Grandma to come.How I love Nova Scotia.We went there twice last year and we all had a ball.I finally met most of my great-aunts,uncles,and cousins whom I never met before.Then in October we went again with my grandma.She got to see her siblings whom she hadn't seen in over twenty years and I met more relatives.
This summer we're going to Nova Scotia again for the family reunion and Iam so excited!I love being near the ocean and sight-seeing.I love roasting marshmellows on the beach and taking pictures.I can't wait!
Also this summer my parents are planning to go to Ontario and Quebec and they invited me to come along.I have many relatives in Quebec who I haven't seen in three years.I just hope noone pressures me to go to my grandma's grave-I can't go there!
My beloved grandma passed away three years ago from bowel cancer.We were extremely close and I took her passing extremely hard.I know if I went to her grave I'd lose it.
Does it make me a jerk for refusing to go to Grandma's grave?Maybe but I can't handle that and I know it.My only worry about this visit is that everyone will pressure me to go to Grandma's grave and think Iam a selfish person when I refuse to go.
But I can't wait to see my family as I've always been so close with them all.I'll have a lot of fun.
My brother and my best friend live in Ontario.I haven't seen my brother in three years and my best friend in almost six years.Also I'll be reuniting with an old friend from school who I haven't seen since we graduated from grade eight in 1994.When my best friend got back in touch with her she helped me get back in touch,too.Iam really excited about seeing my brother and my friends this summer.
So,I have a lot to look forward to.Whenever my depression decides to plauge me I'll just focus on all the stuff I have to look forward to.
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