let there be love!

so it turns out i do make stupid mistakes just like the rest of humanity, who knew. i sure have discovered a lot about myself in the past few months, and people in general. love teaches us a lot.i don't think i've been so wish-washy with my emotions for a long time. at this very second, it's back, there's love for the world inside me, and everything is so beautiful. i did my best to run outside despite my weakened legs and sat in the street in the rain. so few are moments such as these in our lives, where complete clarity streams through our brains, and just being alive becomes a high. i almost feel that relationships and love muffle this clarity, but i don't think love is anything to build a wall infront of. a few months ago i didn't even believe love existed, and now i can just feel it all around me. its emotions, rational emotions, that make a person strong...i used to be so cold and distanced about becoming so deeply fond of another human being, it really just seemed unnecessary. but now, i dont think i'll ever feel that way again. there is nothing wrong with being human, and i'm not going to fight it off anymore. i'm going to love everyone for the smallest things they do, and i'm going to tell them so. this past trip to santa fe has changed me the most drastically, because i left new mexico loving so many people and for the first time not feeling guilty about it. not feeling guilty for exhibiting the traits that every one of us has. even though i am finding some slight imperfections in this katie i have grown to love most of all, i know there is so much more out there in the world for me to grow and learn from.

this is some sort of epiphany maybe.

feeling sad, feeling love, feeling lost or alone, it's all part of feeling alive...and that conquers any downpour of less favorable emotions.