Price of freedom

Price of Freedom,
Charles J Harvey
11-21-10


Horrid serpentine images taunt me and dance through my head, Ferries dance with little dwarfs atop my bed, Your words so hateful and filled with spite still echo in my ear and mind, still twisted up and confused to the thought of; why was I so blind? I used to believe I was a good man, before my heart grew cold and hollow, sickening truths of one’s self suddenly become too much to swallow. Should I find refuge in the darkness to shield myself from this perplexing pain, or shall I walk the streets in the night crying masked by the falling rain. Panic sercums me, and my knees are week as my hands begin to tremble, why does life become so complicated when yet I am so simple? Scars I wear upon my sleeve to show where I have in fact played with fire and was burned, but yet my heart is still open, no obvious lesson was learned. I look in the mirror and only disgust is what I see, I look to the heavens but even God has seemingly has forsaken me. I can remember the memories, the one in which started this downward spiral of twisted pain, I remember the good old days, hard liquor and fire cocaine. I remember how I once was so young that death was but distant dream, and now I can feel death stalking me. I have guilt, I have so much of it I wish I could trade it for gold, at least I would be rich, and the loneliness wouldn’t be so hard to hold. Blessed are the weak, and the simple minded, oh how I envy them and wish I too was blinded. Love your brother the Good word says, as you love yourself, I say look around this world and realize you can only love you and nobody else. What have I become, when did I lose my basic innocence and righteous southern pride? And where are those who say, “ you can do anything,” because I stand in confrontation to tell those liars they lied. This world is free, as long as you have the money to pay for this Nazi freedom, as we make deals abroad and then only go back and cheat them. They say that we are walking the edge of dooms day….and I must say I cannot wait, and my fingers are crossed that it takes me away!