wishlists

Today I finally confessed to myself that I don't know what I want. I was thinking I'll know when I c it (him). But it's been a while and I still don't know. I've even started to beleive everyone has only one second half and only one true love in a lifetime. But as it would be so sad if u have already missed that one and only chance I abandoned this idea..

Was thinking to make a wishlist but it is also not an option. People don't fit in checklists. Relationship even less.

I am not too picky or something but when u r with someone it should be something great, a big deal, right? Or all this is just a romantic bullshit? On the other hand there r people who r ready to die for love.. Then the conclusion is the same - the problem is in me.

Is it the same for everybody this way or it's just me and everyone else know what they want and what they r looking for?