Here i am the day after all days

well just went thru all my emails from him and was quite atonished by all of them...i could truly c why i was such an emotional mess yesterday till my faith stepped in to soothe and calm me down...they were very, very intense and no wonder after i compared them w the forum and what he had written there at the same time and days writing me so vividly and myself replying let's communicate this way and as soon as my art show is done let's talk about things at length when i have time in abundance...interestingly enough had received emails from both of them...both were very polite to me...whoa being caught up unknowingly in a triangle is no fun at all...i suppose from his side all is fair in love and war and isn't it interesting to note that our two countries had just been at war many years...i mean yesterday morning on my way to get supplies before breakfast and to read my email (was so looking fwd to it) was thinking the only thing that was keeping us apart was politics, our countries, and looking and thinking of ways to get around it...and to come home to attempt to eat while i was reading what was really going on...no wonder i was so extremely devasated after being beseiged like that...and the way i found things out...yes people my faith keeps me going but i am a sensitive, very girly-girl and so am emotional...i can't just snap out of it...it shall take some time to get thru it...i think i need to go be w my friends...it's funny i use to think how do people get involved thru the internet...mail is mail however it is written...and words last forever...didn't Beethoven write that...these words will last forever...