I love children... I just can't eat a whole one

A lot of people ask me why I never had kids. I really do not have a good excuse. Except I never knew anyone that was giving them away like puppies. I am being funny, it is a joke.
Truth of the matter is, it was never so much intentional, to not have kids. I just never got around to it. I know a bit of a stretch, a man to lazy to father a child. What I mean is, I never got to the point in my life where I felt I was ready both mentally and financially. I ws born and rasied very poor. I told myself I would not have children until I could at least make sure they would be provided for, college, insurance, etc. But life in it's infinate roller coaster ride, never allowed me to get stable long enough to actually follow through.
First, I wanted to get the business, started, then it was build a house. Later I wanted to change everything and attended college as an adult. Before I knew it, I was in my id to late thirties, and the thought of having a child was getting to be less and less of a reality. Instead of me being more stable, I seemed to be further from stability, and now deeply in debt.
Next thing I know, I am approaching forty. By now I have nieces and nephews, that are old enough to come visit. I could spoil them, then send them home. I will get back at my brothers and sisters for not being nicer to me as their older brother.. bahahahahaa Then in my early forties came the divorce. It was all over but the crying.
Now I am starting my fifties. I sit here pouting that I have no grandchildren. Well who's fault is that? I cannot blame anyone but myself. Had I taken the initiative, and knocked up some girl in high school, or one of those dozens of hot mama's that were ready to get a bun in the oven when I was single and looking. I could have cured that problem. But no, not me. I had to wait. A friend who has two lovely grandchildren told me, (way to late) "When it comes to having kids, if you wait until the time is right.. you will never have them."
Well, I guess my nieces and nephews will have kids soon. Maybe I can spoil the HELL out of them too. Yes. I am evil.