WHO IS INSIDE YOU??????.........
A lot of times I’m a bit surprised about the fact there’s such a clash between the person I am on the outside and the way I feel on the inside. I feel like a fake. As if I’m wearing a mask for the world to see that I refuse to lower for anyone to see pass. I’ve given a few a small glimpse but the truth is that I pull away when I realize what I’ve allowed them to see.
To the world I smile, I laugh out loud with those who claim to be friends, I embrace the adventures suggested and I am the clown who tries to make others smile. Inside it feels as if my face will crack from the smile being too big. I can hear how hollow my laugh actually sounds and wonder why others don’t hear it too. My jokes feel too forced.
I use to tell people that behind every bright, upbeat, smiling face is a darker person within. I think I made that statement when I was around fourteen. To date I still believe it to be true. Especially when it comes to those like me who hardly ever seem sad. I’m just grateful that I have the outlets I have. Writing, walking, and even mediation. It helps in allowing me to see how wonderful life can actually be. Even in the darkest of times. Sort of like stopping to count ones blessings.
It also made me wonder something. If I’m hiding behind a mask of sorts isn’t it safe to assume others are too. It can make a person why we feel we must keep our feelings buried in such a way? Why must we always live life as if we are wearing mask?
Comments (14)
The truth will set you free, and If you want anything done, ask a woman.”
virgosingle ....i am not gemini thanking you
for the comment...
mitsos larnaca, Nicosia Cyprus.....thankyou
yes we all are acting according to the
unknown super power....
Ariel328 Sofia, Sofiya-Grad Bulgaria
2 hours ago
Hopefully my beloved hot man
DEAR miss.Ariel....what can i say?/
pranoy vijayawada India....Sir..thanking
you for your input...there r times one
needs to let the mind out..
On a serious note, I am a private person, meaning I don t share my everything with everybody. But what I share is honest. Wearing mask is a tough thing for me and I don t see the sense of it. Of course, there are things like social etiquette etc, but I try to be as genuine as I can. Good for everyone.
Thank you for the interesting blog and enjoy the rest of the day!
Ariel328 Sofia, Sofiya-Grad Bulgaria
2 minutes ago
I am glad you accepted the joke, Rajkumari :)
dear miss Ariel....you r gem of a person
and i am and always will be proud to be
your fan..the real thing is i feel your
nice behaviour and feel cs is worth staying
for people like you .....thanking you miss
let god bless you in all good ways...