the doctor said ....
about three weeks ago I stared feelin really blue crying,shaky,nervous, I generally dont get the blues & thought perhaps I was pre menopausal or it had to do with the fact ide given up smoking anyway around that time i had some stuff going down so I didnt think much of it , then I had a panic attack , major ,numbing couldnt move or breathe I was overwelmed with fear ! Ive never suffered a mental illness but the doctor said depression , anxiety & panic disorder ...Now this I didnt believe Im so not depressed so I demanded more tests.I had blood & a scan ultrasound done this reavealed 5 multicystic nodules in my thyroid one is 5 cms which is roughly golfball size ...Also a lymph node in my neck is enlarged This apparently is releasing endorphines adrenaline etc into my endocrine system causing havoc !I was squeezed in christmas eve for a biopsy .. now the wait.
I am scared
I dont scare easy
I am the mother of two great kids , who need me .
Its hard not to think about the what ifs
Trying to keep positive is difficult
I can see the one in my neck now so I know its growning it is also felt when i swallow.
It is realy hard as I havnt wanted to tell family being xmass didnt wanna bum them out plus i dont really know anything yet.
Anyone had a similar experiance & how do you cope !
Kizzy
Comments (11)
I should know by tuesday..
Keep ya posted !
For now im of to the beach
Kizzy
I have faith I will be ok It is just the unknown It has made me reflect deeply about all manner of things perhaps this is why this is happening ...
Personal reflection is an amazing thing ..
I do believe things happen for a reason so I am trying to determine whats behind this one as it unfolds
Kizzy
I've had a couple of close calls myself (well, more than a couple, actually) and I can tell you with cast iron certainty that you will emerge from this a stronger person.
If I may, I would like to echo WD's 'Good luck for Tuesday'.
Jan
Being new to this site, I'm totally moved by the concern and good wishes expressed by others. The one thing your experience reinforces for me that you should always demand to get a second opinion. The Doctors do not always get it right. There was clearly something inside you telling you that their initial diagnosis was not on the mark. You listened well to your inner voice.
My ex has had to wait days for biopsy results and it can be very stressful for everyone.
Good luck tomorrow.
babymilo