Chin Up andAll That...
wow, more space to write, lol...I wonder at times when I seek inside for answers... How I connect with others on personal levels, and still keep solitude.
My hardest work is acceptance of help in any way...so ingrained in my mind and heart is a lifetime of being slapped down...
Realistically, I know so many more have it far worse than I. Yet, I am inside this life. I live inside this flesh...and, I live within the reality that surrounds me...
I hide my pain, and tears from others... Guilt makes it so, and the deepest feeling of being unworthy of a single thing...
I know this not to be true. I understand the process that got me here... Yet, to carve out that tainted seed so buried deep within I cannot reach without destroying myself in the hunt for the poisons.
So, here I am...
I am in pain. I am ill, and have few days of wellness...
I sucks so bad! And, beware of pity of myself...lest life give me more...
Like hushhhhhhhhh.
covered mouth holds back
screams so loud
if uttered forth
it might hear me
and, doomed to more, I would be?
Yes, truth hurts as well..inner truth.
I hold a hand, and take into heart.
But, say goodness in truth from another to me. I sink inside myself...
Hand shy. And, how to learn to stop this thing...? I don't know. I can only be in this moment for now...
So, chin up, ol' gal!
I won't say, "it's not that easy..." I will say it hurts...
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Kathleen
I hope you don't mind if I write a couple of paragraphs on something I just read today:
To love yourself fully, you must focus on a new dimension of you. You must focus on the PRESENCE inside of You. Take a moment and sit still. Focus on feeling the LIFE PRESENCE inside you. As you focus on the PRESENCE within, it will begin to reveal itself to You. It is a feeling of pure love and bliss, and it is perfection. That PRESENCE is the REAL You. As you focus on that presence, as you feel, love, and praise that presence, you will love yourself fully, quite possibly for the first time in your life.
Any time you look at yourself with critical eyes, switch your focus immediately to the PRESENCE within, and its perfection will reveal itself to You. As you do this, all imperfections that have manifested in your life will dissolve, because imperfections cannot exist in the light of this presence. Whether you want to regain perfect eyesight,dissolve disease and restore well-being, turn poverty into abundance, reverse aging and degeneration, or eradicate any negativity, focus on and love the presence within you and perfection will manifest.
"The absolute truth is that the 'I' is perfect and complete; the real 'I' is spiritual and can therefore never be less than perfect; it can never have any lack, limitation, or disease."
--Charles Haanel
you are such a beautiful person and i am proud to call you a friend i many times talk about those i have meet here and people say how long have you know them and i say over a year and they ask when do you see them and i say never in person just in the heart
......Counter point...
Phil Jackson: "There is no I in Team."
Mike Jordan.:.." There is in WIN."