I just had a coffee with an x-gf before a trip I was about to start. She was with me before my last gf with whom I just broke up with too. During the coffee we talked about many subjects, but nothing about love life. Stupid subject in this case I thought. In the end, when I left my x-gf, I remembered her prophecy long ago about having the same end with the next gf as I had had with her. I shuddered. The night was fresh as only the summer nights are here, so I decided to walk for a while. It is a fact that I have always felt that I am not well-equipped for long relationships with women, but in spite of my certainty and even pride about that I noticed that I was crumbling inside and feeling that my way was marked toward the void. The nasty feeling held me for a while until I arrived home and slept. Next morning however, I felt that the more I thought of the doom, the more I was going to attract it by taking more stupid decisions based on fears an insecurity. I thought this negative thinking was a recipe for disaster. I also thought that if I was not equipped for long termed relationships then I should no hurry into another one just because I was not sure if I could be strong enough to watch my own fate. I decided then that I had to hold my fate fast, and I had to do it as bravely and energetically as I would have done with any other fate. I wrote in my notebook: Recipe for disaster and memorised it in order to avoid it anytime it feels like to use it.
Oh, your ex knows that revenge is a dish best served cold - she´s waited until you were down to put doubts in your mind about your ability to ever have long-lasting happiness in your life. It´s a classic move, don´t worry about it.
I reckon that neither of your exes can have been the right one for you, otherwise you wouldn´t have left them... ...but only you know the answer to that.
negative thought leads to doubt, insecurity, fear... u have to have faith in ur self... as long as u still trying to overcome that negative thought, its best not to b in a relation...
if u have that kind of negative thought, kill that thought n try to b more positive... never let ur mind control u, it could get nasty...
Antjo39: I just had a coffee with an x-gf before a trip I was about to start. She was with me before my last gf with whom I just broke up with too. During the coffee we talked about many subjects, but nothing about love life. Stupid subject in this case I thought. In the end, when I left my x-gf, I remembered her prophecy long ago about having the same end with the next gf as I had had with her. I shuddered. The night was fresh as only the summer nights are here, so I decided to walk for a while. It is a fact that I have always felt that I am not well-equipped for long relationships with women, but in spite of my certainty and even pride about that I noticed that I was crumbling inside and feeling that my way was marked toward the void. The nasty feeling held me for a while until I arrived home and slept. Next morning however, I felt that the more I thought of the doom, the more I was going to attract it by taking more stupid decisions based on fears an insecurity. I thought this negative thinking was a recipe for disaster. I also thought that if I was not equipped for long termed relationships then I should no hurry into another one just because I was not sure if I could be strong enough to watch my own fate. I decided then that I had to hold my fate fast, and I had to do it as bravely and energetically as I would have done with any other fate. I wrote in my notebook: Recipe for disaster and memorised it in order to avoid it anytime it feels like to use it.
I think it has a lot to do with how your parents behaved... if they were happy together... you don't fear the possibility, if you saw constant strife... you fear it might happen to you. Our reality is based on our personal experiences... whether wrong or right, you either grow beyond it or you can't.
gininitaly: I think it has a lot to do with how your parents behaved... if they were happy together... you don't fear the possibility, if you saw constant strife... you fear it might happen to you. Our reality is based on our personal experiences... whether wrong or right, you either grow beyond it or you can't.
It is true, but do not you think there is a genetic load too? My granda, mother side, was a big womaniser, but he was also a guy of deep feelings. Why do we see such contradcitions? He had in his family many Catholic priests as ancestors and othe rcrazy people. What do you think about the genetic load? Do you think it is another way to keep recipes for disaster?
invinciblemuse: Oh, your ex knows that revenge is a dish best served cold - she´s waited until you were down to put doubts in your mind about your ability to ever have long-lasting happiness in your life. It´s a classic move, don´t worry about it.
I reckon that neither of your exes can have been the right one for you, otherwise you wouldn´t have left them... ...but only you know the answer to that.
I think she was a little Stalinist when she was younger...probably she learnt that dish cold then... Sure, some women or men do those revengeful things, but I am not a gullible guy actually, not even in my worst moments. However, there must be something wrong in relationships finished regarding not to have found the RIGHT ONe, but I always tend to think more of the things an individual has inside to ruin what is built with so much effort.
linzy: negative thought leads to doubt, insecurity, fear... u have to have faith in ur self... as long as u still trying to overcome that negative thought, its best not to b in a relation...
if u have that kind of negative thought, kill that thought n try to b more positive... never let ur mind control u, it could get nasty...
i know coz i'm still trying to b more positive...
True, negative thoughts have to be rooted out as soon as possible. When they grow, they get branched off, get hold of other parts of our mind and life, then it gets too hard to take them away. Thanks for warm reply.
Maybe u r equipped for long term and maybe ur not, but the heart knows who it wants. U know when u felt the crumbling inside, was when u were morning the loss of another person in ur life....Sounds to me that u have found two that were just not right for u. Keep the chin up, so u don't miss the right one for u...
Buffy327: Maybe u r equipped for long term and maybe ur not, but the heart knows who it wants. U know when u felt the crumbling inside, was when u were morning the loss of another person in ur life....Sounds to me that u have found two that were just not right for u. Keep the chin up, so u don't miss the right one for u...
I will try to be more alert than usual. Thanks for your nice thoughts..
Antjo39: I will try to be more alert than usual. Thanks for your nice thoughts..
You have complicated personality, Anjo39. You are thinker not a doer. What I mean ... you need someone who you can disscuss all those ideas that pop in your head, quite a few times a day. You need a conversational woman, a woman who lives more in a World of Brainstorms then in a Reality. You are philosopher which means there a very little chance you will merry someone for life. But you can make your girlfriends happy!
Sorry if I have been too bold. But that wha I have noticed about you.
I keep an eye on you and your thoughts
I like your attitude .... very peaceful and curious you are
Negative thinking is a recipe for disaster. If you say it long enough, you may tend to believe it as being a truth and it will block you from ever succeeding in a relationship.
Life, genetics & relationships are very complex. Consider perhaps the recipe for success....kinda like a delicious soup recipe. If you say that recipe long enough and know what ingredients you want and need, you will be more open and able to see if those ingredients are in the other person in the first place. If they are lacking, then you don't want to even start a relationship with them otherwise you will be dissappointed.
Also I do believe that even finding the one with your right recipe, it takes alot of work for both to add to it to keep on improving it. Kinda like a recipe for life, love and happiness. The final taste and aroma will be right for the both of you. That is the recipe for success in relationships.
Any couple who has been married for many years and still has that twinkle of love in their eyes for each other knows well about the successful recipe that works for them.
You asked about genetics and I believe there is a connection between that and relationships as you have brought up. Hormones are part of our genetic makeup and affect our thinking process. Hormones may play some part in why people have a difficult time staying in a relationship. Some women can be very moody on a monthly basis where others are not. All men go through the andropause...the male version of the change of life but all behavior is not the same for all men. In our country, it is not uncommon that lots of marriages fall apart at this time as many men start running around on their spouses, dress flashy, play the big shot of sorts with flashy vehicles, boats, motorcycles to attract a young woman conquest. As their hormones start to decrease, some feel an urge to do something to prove themselves as still very verile. Some women go through chasing after younger men around menopause. Although not every person goes through it like this, we all do feel some changes about themselves as we age and it is these hormonal shifts that affect our thinking and our relationships.
Add to it that some of the lack of success in realationships may be planted as memories in our minds through the environment and experiences we've been accustomed to growing up with. A person may model themselves after what they feel is proper at the moment and not worry about the future. But then after awhile, the future does come to be the present and then they realize that life has rushed by them and they are alone.
I wish you happiness in your life. You're a great guy and deserve the best only. Keep your recipe positive
Konigsberg: You have complicated personality, Anjo39. You are thinker not a doer. What I mean ... you need someone who you can disscuss all those ideas that pop in your head, quite a few times a day. You need a conversational woman, a woman who lives more in a World of Brainstorms then in a Reality. You are philosopher which means there a very little chance you will merry someone for life. But you can make your girlfriends happy!
Sorry if I have been too bold. But that wha I have noticed about you.
I keep an eye on you and your thoughts I like your attitude .... very peaceful and curious you are
You are 0% wrong about what you say, and I thank you for your nice post. Some people love living in their own reality. but that is not the world where we have to feed and breathe. Maybe that clash between both worlds is just another mirage that the older years will dissolve into a calm contemplation of a mystery that is now just chaos.
Antjo39: You are 0% wrong about what you say, and I thank you for your nice post. Some people love living in their own reality. but that is not the world where we have to feed and breathe. Maybe that clash between both worlds is just another mirage that the older years will dissolve into a calm contemplation of a mystery that is now just chaos.
The World of the Woman and the World of the Man .... Two different planets. Two different Realms. ... I like it
Ant said:" Maybe that clash between both worlds is just another mirage that the older years will dissolve into a calm contemplation of a mystery that is now just chaos."
Nah, but the trouble is, exes know you very well and are not afraid to speak up (whatever reason they may have to do so).
So, before hanging out with the ex, you gotta be mentally prepared to hear what you might not wanna hear... and when you hear it, you need to decide, if they´ve got a valid point or not.
Ant...you are your own worse enemy. You have become a self-fufilling prophesy. If you want a different outcome, you need to completely channge your outlook or else be a lonely old man. Something I wouldnt wish on anyone...good luck
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invinciblemuse: Nah, but the trouble is, exes know you very well and are not afraid to speak up (whatever reason they may have to do so).
So, before hanging out with the ex, you gotta be mentally prepared to hear what you might not wanna hear... and when you hear it, you need to decide, if they´ve got a valid point or not.
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In the end, when I left my x-gf, I remembered her prophecy long ago about having the same end with the next gf as I had had with her. I shuddered.
The night was fresh as only the summer nights are here, so I decided to walk for a while. It is a fact that I have always felt that I am not well-equipped for long relationships with women, but in spite of my certainty and even pride about that I noticed that I was crumbling inside and feeling that my way was marked toward the void. The nasty feeling held me for a while until I arrived home and slept.
Next morning however, I felt that the more I thought of the doom, the more I was going to attract it by taking more stupid decisions based on fears an insecurity.
I thought this negative thinking was a recipe for disaster.
I also thought that if I was not equipped for long termed relationships then I should no hurry into another one just because I was not sure if I could be strong enough to watch my own fate.
I decided then that I had to hold my fate fast, and I had to do it as bravely and energetically as I would have done with any other fate.
I wrote in my notebook: Recipe for disaster and memorised it in order to avoid it anytime it feels like to use it.