Tonight I have realized something about myself... (8)

I am very insecure about many things in my life...

I met someone on another site and we started chatting simply because he grew up where I live. Long story short over the last few weeks we have been texting and chatting on Yahoo. One night when I was in Edmonton we finally got a chance to meet in person - briefly, then a few days later he came out to my place and we hung out watching a movie etc.

I have very few friends where I live and I tend to make friends easier with males than I do females so I was happy to have a new friend to talk to who has also been through a lot of similar crap in life (even though there is a decent age difference between us).

Well we were supposed to get together this weekend and I really don't know if it was something I said or what, but he got his "knickers in a knot" and spazzed out about something and cancelled our plans...

So rather than beating a dead horse I simply sent a text apologizing for whatever upset him and that I won't be contacting him again unless he contacts me first. I have yet to hear back from him... whatever I guess.

I know that over the last 10years I have been a hermit basically, my ex did all kinds of things and I was constantly left to tend the kids and pick up after him - this has left me in such a state of insecurity about myself, my life, my feelings etc. Until tonight though I just did not realize how bad a state that I am in.

Sorry for venting but I needed to get it off my chest.

Dont beat yourself up searching for some reason what you done or said, You probally never done nothing so dont waste your time the person is not worthy of you

I agree with Scouser.

Don't blame yourself and chin up buttercup!

This man seems like he is childish or something and you deserve much better than that!!

Why would you just assume that it was YOU that did something??

If you think you're insecure....this man may have it worse...


I don't know if i would consider it "insecurity" anymore...if that were the case then there is alot of "insecure" people on here...
I think its more that we have all experienced circumstances at this stage than we could never have imagined when we were much younger...it has just taught us to be more wary about "relationships"..perhaps a little more fearful of behaviours at one time we would have just "blown off"...or not even given a second thought to...

Well ok Ed...your answer works too!!

The fact is that years ago thats exactly what we would have done...certainly not sit around trying to reason what "we" may have done wrong...

Times do change huh??

Wolfdogs,, keep your chin up

stupid thing was I was waiting around for him to get off work (went shopping with a friend etc) instead I could have been out having fun with you guys & gals!!!!