daddys girl, ( Archived) (21)

I wan't to stay up late, My brother wants it too,
Daddy seems so happy,(I'm scared now what will I do)
Daddy's being nice, he just sat me on his knee,
(Brother when his nice like this, his being mean to me)

I'm sitting on his lap,(I want to run away)
(I want to scream and shout, but to who, What do I say?)
Daddy's saying that he loves me,(am I wrong for feeling bad?, I don't know what to say or do, after all, he is our Dad)

He's sending you to bed now,( your tiered and mesmerised)
(As you walk towards the door, do you not see my pleading eyes)

You have gone to bed now, it's only him and me, I know your feeling quite left out, Daddys girl is what you see.
(Daddy please don't do that, Your holding way too tight)
(somebody please help me, I'm scared and I just cant fight)

We are lying in the bedroom, the rest I can not say, but if I close my eyes for long enough I know I can fade away.

*not quite breathing*

? what's the problem?

i just kinda thought that poetry stayed in that site, I wrote that when I was younger but never showed any one, It says a lot and I wasn't ready to say that much, kinda thing. not to the whole word. it,s my past I,ve dealt with it but seeing it out hear is frightining

it IS "in that site"..., all the threads show up on the main board

sorry for what happened to you, and I hope you feel ok about it being out there.

Maybe there is a reason for your having posted it in CS, maybe there's another level of healing for you about having it be so public.

Many women (and men) here have been through that too, unfortunately.

You probably won't get many people writing in respect to it. How can they? How can relate to your experience? It's not a lack of caring, just a "What can I say?" sort of thing.

I will say that the victim is manipulated into believing they are the instigator and therefore guilty. My youngest sister went through a similar experience, but not from my father. we all used to climb over Dad safely like he was a big teddy bear. And he was.
You have no need to feel ashamed.

thanks don't know what to say, it's done now if nobody go's near it it will drift down the list and be gone. thanks for reading it and not saying to much. your a hun, I know what you are saying realy though I do, and I appreciate it. your prob right.... ah well nothing I can do now. it's there. it's a part of me and I suppose thats who I am....

NO, it's NOT "who you are", it's just "something that happened" to you. You do not have to let it define "who you ARE."

amen to that. and the poetry...was quite powerful...and most likely healing.

there are several in my family that have gone through this...it's rough...but it doesn't have to be the defining feature.

i hope...and pray...for your wounds to heal.