SOME FOOD FOR THOUGHT ( Archived) (4)

I'LL BE 30 IN ABOUT A YEAR AND A HALF AND EVEN THOUGH IT SCARES THE CRAP OUT OF ME I THINK I'M FINALLY COMING TO GRIPS WITH THE FACT THAT I'M NOT YOUNG ANYMORE..REMEMBER THE GOOD OLD DAYS WHEN WE WE'RE ABLE WRITE OFF ANY MISTAKE WE MAKE AS BEING YOUNG AND DUMB? I REALLY MISS THOSE DAYS,NOT REALLY KNOWING WHAT WE WANTED TO DO IN LIFE AND HAVE PEOPLE TELL US "THAT'S OKAY YOUR STILL YOUNG YOU HAVE PLENTY OF TIME TO MAKE UP YOUR MIND!!" THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN THIS CRAZY THING CALLED MIDDLE AGE CATCHES UP WITH US..YOU KNOW THE AGE WHERE WE STILL FEEL YOUNG, WE STILL THINK YOUNG, WE EVEN STILL LOOK YOUNG OR AT LEAST THAT'S WHAT WE THINK UNTIL WE MEET SOMEONE WHO REALLY IS!! THAT'S WHEN REALITY SETS IN AND WE ARE FORCED TO MAKE A DECISION DO WE ACCEPT THE FACT THAT OUR YOUTH FULL EXPERIENCES ARE NOW TRADED IN FOR YOUTH FULL MEMORIES? OR ARE WE STILL WALKING AROUND WEARING CLOTHES WE HAVE NO BUSINESS WEARING, HANGING OUT IN PLACES WE HAVE NO BUSINESS HANGING OUT IN, AND PARTYING ALL NIGHT AND STILL TRYING TO GO TO WORK THE NEXT MORNING? I HAD TO ASK MYSELF WHY AM I SO AFRAID OF GROWING UP! IS IT THE FEAR OF KIDS LOOKING AT US THE WAY WE USE TO LOOK AT OUR PARENTS BACK IN THE DAY? OR IS THE FIRST TIME IN LIFE WHERE WE HAD TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT THIS LIFE REALLY ISN'T FOREVER? AND IF MIDDLE AGE SLOWLY WALKED UP ON US HOW MUCH LONGER BEFORE THAT TURNS INTO OLD AGE? WELL I'VE FINALLY ACCEPTED THAT FACT THAT I CAN'T BE YOUNG FOREVER AND EVEN THOUGH MY LIFE IS TURNING OVER A NEW LEAF I'LL ALWAYS HAVE THE MEMORIES OF THE LONG NIGHTS THAT TURN INTO DAYS, THE LATE NIGHTS THROWING UP AND THE EARLY MORNING HANG OVERS, AND OF COURSE THE ONE NIGHT STANDS AND NOW THAT ALL OF THAT'S BEHIND US WE CAN FOCUS ON THE BETTER THINGS IN OUR FUTURE HAVING OUR FIRST HOME, OUR FIRST CAREER, OUR FIRST JOINT ACCOUNT, OUR FIRST WEDDING, OUR FIRST FAMILY CAR, AND OUR FIRST TIME HEARING OUR KIDS SAY MOMMY AND DADDY YOUR OLD!!! BUT THAT'S OKAY BECAUSE WE'VE BEEN THEIR AGE BEFORE BUT THEY HAVEN'T BEEN OUR AGE YET!! DID ANYONE ELSE EVER FEEL THIS WAY??

Yeah absolutely!

I had a huuuge party for my 30th.. and after that I freaked out.. all the same things you mentioned.

I had to STOP myself when I started looking around the 'old lady' clothes shops.. lol

But yeah it takes a little getting used too.

LOL I have never ever felt bad about any age. I believe you are as old as you feel and as old as you act. I have never acted my age, even when young.

So congratulations on surviving long enough to reach true adulthood. It gets better and you care less about what others think about you.