i feel trapped in my own head....i feel like i cant excape.....i am freaking out....i am running in circles....GOD help....nothing happens nothing ever does happen....it just stays the same....so therefore i turn to drugs....POT....I LOVE IT.... it excapes me from the pain so i dont have to deal with it....i feel lonely.... like there is no one to talk to....i feel like everyone gives up on me....i feel like no one gives me a chance....i just want to feel excepted and wanted....i feel like depression is taking over my life....one minute i am balling my eyes out....and the next i am happy where does it stop....they tell me to take my meds but i hate them....i feel like they are experimenting on me....why do people hate me....why do people reject me without even knowing me....why aint i skinny....why aint i pretty....i am lost in a sea of wonders of how my life is gonna turn out....why did i go through the things i went through....why was i raped....why did my dad not want me....why did my other dad have to die....why did i have to watch my grandma take her last breathe....why did i have to be abused as a little kid....what are gods attentions for me....why do i get looked at funny....why do i get used....for everything....from everyone....why do i get stood up....why cant my dreams come true....why cant i find someone who will love me for me....
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Posted: Nov 2010
About this poem:
this is an old one...but it is my writing and of course i love it
Think positive thoughts and the future will be better. Cant change the past only make choices for the future. Many questions we have all asked at some point. Good write.
Comments (2)
Everything is
as is
and that's all
there is
No meaning. Just be.
I love it 2.
will be better. Cant change the past only
make choices for the future. Many questions
we have all asked at some point. Good write.