Autumn...
Nights growing colder and love kept in a silent perspective
Full Moon and gloomy moonbeams
Perhaps the World is sorrowful, suffering several calamities
Another sleepless night to me
Candle light at my dark bedroom, my obscure shrine
Right now i am listening to bells ringing at a distant cathedral
So i think to myself: where is my temple???
Will any religion accept my sinful life???
First i need to purify my mouth... i hope so...
Who will forgive my doubtful mind and my selfish heart?
Maybe i am unforgiven in spite of being so grateful to my ancestors
My invisible and visible foes curse me every single day...
And so i offer my deep compassion to them
Yesterday night i met twisted friends who stole my balance
Who are my true friends at this decaying city?
Is there someone who will rescue me from this involuntary exile?
Is there anyone here who really has the power of making me feel good?
I don´t wanna bother the spiritual realms of light and cry for help
However i confess that i don´t want to be "all by myself" nowadays
I am tired of living daily nightmares and collect battle scars
Hopefully i am stronger than my painful sufferings and so i survive
May my loyal hidden fellows guide me back safely to my next home!!!
My future i can´t foresee but i won´t perish here where i dwell now
My secret ally will predetermine my blessed fate and destination
Someday i will forget this dismal present way of living
I will keep my faith and my enlightened path will save my soul
I hope so...
Let it be so!!!