You wrote a very intense poem. I can feel your pain, frustration and upset...It is good to write and vent. Good for you to share. Sorry, that you are hurting, though. I wish that I could take your pain away, I've been there, I do understand. I promise it will get better. I know loss is a difficult thing. I hate loss. I don't like goodbyes, either. Never say them, I'll say, see you soon, see you later, etc. Loss is hard for everyone!! Everyone, handles loss in a different ways. There is no book with steps to follow on how each person is to act and feel when we have to let go of someone we care for. We just have to find a way somewhere within ourselfs, deep inside, to let go, forgive, wish them the best, move on, find new intrests, get involved in other things, other people will come in and out of your life for the rest of it, think about it, that is a long,long time.....You meet people sometimes only for a short time, yet they leave an impression on you. They were sent your way for a purpose. Others stay longer, it is life. We take what we can get, learn, give and share with the ones we call friends and we love and accept them the way they are. When the time comes and something changes, it hurts bad, I know, I have had much loss in my life, but, you must go on. There is so much more in life to enjoy, so many new friends to meet. Please, do not give up hope on the fact that you are a good person and give yourself the time to heal and go out and live your life again. Take care. I will be praying for you. Peace and Hugs!

A tough situation, but you are right, better to let them know than regret that you didn't. Nicely expressed