I've taken each day for granted,
Knowing each night would bring a new dawn.
The axis has always been slanted,
Another innocence forever gone.

Thought I'd have time to tell all my loved ones,
Exactly how dear they're held in my heart.
Watching my heart and soul, my beloved sons,
Grow to men and their own families start.

Just knew down the road I'd be granny,
Baking cookes and making trips to the zoo.
Now the thought seems so damn uncanny,
That these things I may never do.

First I was calm and collected,
Assuring all that it's no big deal.
With this facade I have deflected,
The way that I truly feel.

I'm scared to death of dying,
Frightened at what lies ahead.
At first I only felt like crying,
Can't clear these thoughts from my head.

The trees emit a peaceful grace.
The grass, a deeper shade of green.
Delicate birds set a different pace,
I'm embraced by my Father unseen.

Appreciate the little things,
They make life seem oh so sweet.
Embrace all this life brings,
Smile at everyone you meet.

I realize now that my time is measured,
Each second that passes is lost.
See now the things I once treasured,
Had come with an unknown cost.

The stress of just trying to make it,
At times seems more than I can bare.
When I think I can no longer take it,
Strength comes to me from out of nowhere.

My world is gone, forever changed.
So confused about what I should do.
My life completely rearranged,
Everything feels brand new.

Pain so intense it deludes me.
Can't even focus my mind.
Clear thought completely eludes me,
Sanity impossible to find.

I pray for strength and clarity,
And the courage to face this fight.
For love and patience, such a rarity,
And guidance to do what is right.

Awareness of all of the little things,
Appreciation of everyone that I love.
Excitement of what tomorrow brings,
Is now my gift from above.