Civil War

The final push, vitriolic defeat,
Like a Phoenix I rise, you fall at my feet.
Who's laughing now, you lamentable clown?
You thought you could win, but I tore your house down.

The shockwaves destroying the life that you nurture,
And all you can do is accept that the torture
You see me deploy is meant not only for you,
But for those who you love and who you made love you.

Who loves you now? Who cares for your pain?
Who still has time for your self-obsessed reign?
Not the girl you deserted, nor the woman left broken,
By the endless derision of lies you have spoken.

I am your master, I am your King,
I am inside you, I pull every string.
I am who led you down the path that you chose,
And its I who shall piss on your corpse at lifes close.

I've always been here, you knew my existence,
You heard me deride your pathetic resistance.
How deluded you were, unaware of my might,
How weak your attempts to abscond from your plight.

Its over for you, for I have watched grow
The seeds that were sewn many years ago.
Frustration, self-doubt, confusion, guilt,
Cancers designed to destroy what you built.

I can't help but laugh as I fire my last arrow,
At your desperate struggles, though surely you know
Once you feel the impact of metal through flesh,
You'll be finally free of your tortured distress.

You see, I am your ally through all you have known,
The one who stood by you, never left you alone.
I led you to comforts and saved you from sin,
No need to thank me, just let me in.



Riposte

The arrow you fire may rip me open,
My blood may be spilt, my flesh may be broken,
My body may quake with the pain you inflicted,
My soul may scream out, but the win you predicted
Shall NEVER be yours, for this is my pledge...
When I find myself broken on lifes window ledge,
I shall find strength from you, with all you have done,
I shall turn to the mirror and see a dark Sun.
I will look in your eyes and all I will see
Is a demon inside of who I used to be.
I shall gather myself and tear you apart,
I shall squeeze the last drops of black blood from your heart.
Like an exorcist I shall extract your delusion
Like a surgeon I shall sever the confusion.
I may not live through this almighty conclusion,
For as we both know, I AM YOU, this illusion
Of innocence sought, well it never can be,
For most distressing of all......YOU ARE ME.
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Posted: Jan 2012
About this poem:
I will be very interested to hear your views on this. I wrote it at a time that I was feeling very close to suicidal, I felt at times that I was schyzophrenic, the dark half and the good. The first part, the main body of the poem, is my dark half tormenting me, the riposte is my stronger, good side rising up in a desperate final struggle for dominance over my psychology.

This is a seriously dark poem, about my own internal conflict. I felt I had betrayed my children, and abused my ex wife. But that was not the case, and I am very pleased to say that my dark side has been banished.

Please comment, this poem is a victory of good over evil, in my own, very personal, civil war.

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Silverlining2
I know the quote, love it! grin
gnj4u
Hi, Silverlining2,
What a powerful struggle waged in this write, with its vitriolic tone. I am glad that this Civil War had the silver lining of a happy ending. Thanks for sharing.
Silverlining2
Thankyou. I guess you see where my pen name on here came from. I went through hell, but it made me a better stronger person. So, every cloud....
Odette67
I may not live through this almighty conclusion,
For as we both know, I AM YOU, this illusion
Of innocence sought, well it never can be,
For most distressing of all......YOU ARE ME.


This is a truly excellent write...Some of the greatest poetry ever written came from despair...You live it...You feel it...You write about it. "The Phoenix Has Risen" purple heart
Silverlining2
High praise, thankyou so much! To be honest its a hard read for me now, feelings are still a touch raw.
Silverlining2
67 views but only 3 people commented? Come on people, I really want your feedback handshake
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