well long lost love its been eight years since we last said I love you. I should have just jumped off a building, it would have been a lot cleaner and less painful. I know your remarried, the smile on your face and look in your eyes are the same ones I used to receive. I can only pray that I receive someone I can love and give everything I took away from you that day. I know I made the choice, I just wish you would have made me talk to you. I only wanted to make you happy for the rest of your life. Looks like I succeeded only the jokes on me. As I write this and the tears become oceans at my feet, I can only hope you'll eventually forgive me. Forgiveness is the only cure I know of that may take this pain away. I know I've got VIP treatment waiting for me in heaven, because since you left it's been a burning hell. Every new day adds fuel to the fire and my heart breaks all over again. So as the sun comes up and I watch people awake and stir around. I'm reminded that the pain is starting all over again and will only hurt worst as the day burns off. You should be right here next to me while I soak in your beauty. I can only picture your husband doing the thing I used to. Yep the jokes on me, I can hear the jester's laughter, as he entertains himself with my pain.

please let this stop