Once a month,
the reminder of emptiness
so that you are tuned
to your body’s harp strings,
strung out on the harpsichord
of all your nerves
& hammered bloody blue
as the crushed fingers
of the pianist
beaten by her jealous lover.

Who was she?
Someone I invented
for this poem,
someone I imagined….

Never mind,
she is me, you-

tied to that body
fainting on the rack of blood,
moving to the metronome-
empty, empty, empty,

no use.
The blood is thicker
than the roots of trees,
more persistent than my poetry,
more baroque than her bruised music.
It gilds the sky above the Virgin’s head.
It turns the lilies white.

Try to run:
the blood still follows you.
Swear off children,
seek a quiet room
to practice your preludes & fugues.
Under the piano,
the blood accumulates;
eventually it floats you both away.

Give in.
Babies cry & music is your life.
Darling, you were born to bleed
or rock.
& the heart breaks
either way.

SAS