So I threw it all away no good to me and I ran as fast as I could but I was right there behind me I was so sick and afraid of the light I closed my eyes again and I kept running but it didn’t matter where or how fast I was falling into the intense heat and I saw them meaningless heartless coming for us we were using it all up just a sickness they knew and wanted us gone they wanted it all so I died and it was OK floating peaceful darkness no feeling of myself feeling nothing and not feeling myself not feeling afraid and I was dead and dreaming dead then I was alive and when they asked why I did not have the answer I opened my eyes but I didn’t want to not want the infinite peaceful darkness the endless empty nothing no pain hunger happiness hope taste touch love words thoughts dreams no fear the walk becomes time and nothing and everything again