Stolen Innocence

In my minds eye I could never conceive
What was about to happen to me
My innocence was stolen just taken from me
By twisted minded individuals who didn't give a damn you see
They took what they wanted they didn't seem to care
it didn't matter the time
any place any where
The pain and suffering
I knew no better
At night in my bed
my pillow grew wetter  
Storms of confusion
swirl round in my head
Here a young child
Just wishing he were dead
To drugs and alcohol
I then would soon turn
To be a care free child
I really did yearn
As the numbness took over
I just wanted to feel
I would cut and I would burn
So that I'd know I was real
Really confused
about who and what I was
Not having a clue
About what was the cause
More attempts on my life
More drugs I would take
Wondering all along
is this real
Or is it all fake
Is this something I made up
In my twisted little mind
No I'm just reaching
For some way to cope
Instead of just sniffing
or shooting some dope
Reality sets in and
I know this is no joke
The night mares the crying
Just keeping me awake 
Will someone please help me
For goodness sake
Most of my life
Destroyed by addiction
Never really understanding
About my affliction
Always blaming myself
For what they had done
Not being able to deal
Always on the run