I wish we could talk
About what I have put you through
You know its hurting me
That we do not speak
I gave you 4 my heart
The second you arrived here
Never felt this way
As I gaze at my babies face
But my depression took control
Everyone but me saw the fall
Trapped behind my own fear
I lost all that I've held dear
But you never left my heart
My soul always belongs to you
And there's nothin I can do
Never lied how I loved you
But I pushed you all away
Never meant to make mistakes
Looks like forever I shall pay
And my hell is here to stay
Why did I hide and run away
I just crawled inside my mind
Not prepared for what I find
Big dark secret deep inside
Inner demons I had to face
I was born into a violent race
Seen things I can't erase
My minds was in an awful state
then I found myself deep inside
And never again shall I hide
Now its time to take back my life
To face people not very nice
But all they wanna do is fight
That's why I left that rainy night
So my babies could have a good life
For there safety I will fight
I'll protect them with my life
They will pay the ultimate price
When I fight I turn to ice
But when my girls were born
I promised to give up that life
But now I can not hide
Who I am deep down in side
They bought it on themselves
Now I'm in my prison cell
And my families safe now
I don't care I have no regrets
But there's no winners here at all
everyone's f_cked up behind these walls
And its plain for all to see
I'm smiling cause I'm free.