KN, I do not want to 'wallow'! But it's me who never able to be happy after a broke up. Even it's already a year, but yes, still I feel so sad so for this. Some people said I'm 'sick' becuase according to them I have to be able to happy after all what had happened to me about my love. That why I think I need help from a doctor or a psychologist. But the funny thing is that after I told her all my problem, the psychologist said she could think I were really sick if I were able to happy in my case!! She said I should speak out my feeling more, don't keep it for myself and don't have to pretent as happy if I don't feel so. I'm following her advices.
Ian, I'm glad you are able to move that fast with your broken heart. Congrats!
Hi Ken, Itchy, Ed, Joy, Ek and Red, your words made me feel love here! :) thanks for that.
KNenagh, I know I need help, I need to get rid of all this fxxking broken heart! I need more time, I guess. BTW, To be honest, it's quite hard for me to understand why there are a lot of people able to change their feeling so fast.
Candy, for my parents, the answer will be their face!! My parents has 5 kids, so, for them, one makes them loosing face can be considered as not their kid anymore. They are still love their kids, I believe, but to protect their face is more important for them. American will hard to understand this so do not try to understand... Same as myself here, I don't understand why they have such kind of thinking in their mind. I gave up asking why, I gave up to ask them any question, I am trying hard to be be happy with my single life instead as I think even want to protect their face but they also want me to be happy.
Z, yes, even for me, it's quite hard to understand that generation.
Regarding to the help from blogger for a kid! - Kid should be the result from love between kid's parents, COMPLETELY NOT just because mother or father wants a kid and try to make it with any available one. Having kid with someone means loving that person so much for me, not just to "borrow" for a while just to make a kid.
Hi PR, it seems immature and depress are serious problems in US! Everyone assumed others has this kind of problem!! in fact, I don't think there is anything relative to these. I confirm that she is neither immature nor depress at all.
Thanks KN, Ed, Ken and Nam, yes, I know I need help, that's why I visit psychologist. She is good. She advised me many good things.
Tatami, I was there for a short business trip, it was raining so most of the time was on car and office. I used express train but slept since got on to took off so didn't noted that. Will come back Japan one day for sure and will look for that.
The meeting was sad, I gave her some advices. Just I miss my crocodile :( - feeling so boring without him in my life. Feeling so upset with myself for this. Perhaps tomorrow I will have to visit again a psychologist. Need to talk to her about my issue... :( Goodnight!
Hi Tatami, It will be fun if suddenly I will see you there either in Osaka or Nagoya, I think. If I see you, sure I will come and say hello :) Thank you for your advice, I will try to learn some basic Nihonggo.
Hi Ken, thanks for what you said, I understand what you said and don't worry, even I'm lonely but it doesn't mean I will love everyone offer me love. And thanks for saying giving me "meet and greet" if you were living in my country. I have a lot of "offers" here near the place I live, from work, from school, from gym club... all of those just made me tired...
It's kind of quite conflict. I feel lonely without my crocodile but I feel so scare of love...
Hi 2nd, so far I think it's quite difficult to have that 'organic' guy, and then when you find one, he is not available!
Hi Z, some one sent me a message saying that after reading my blog he has to google checked 20minutes for what's 'organic man'! I think that's funny :)
Hi Angel, I prefer human instead of dog
Hi Wall, I can't say I completely happy but I feel ok. Thanks for you care
Chame and Music, it's difficult to find an organic man indeed, and as said, when we find one, he is not available!
Hi Ken, at the district where I work, there are many French, I'm not sure about the number but I guess should be around 70-80% French people there as every restaurant, office and business there has either French owner or something relative to France/French.
Ed, thank you. How about your Japanese lady? If there is nothing chance, I will go Japan in October for a business trip. I will have a bit free time (about 1-2 hours) in Osaka, Okawa and Nagoya. It will be my first time to Japan so other than work, it will interesting for me to discover Japan a lit bit. Do you have any recommendation for me that what should I do there as to discover local Japan? Thanks in advance!
Thanks everyone! I think I'm not beauty, but lovely! :) Not sure since when, I start to feel blog as other 'family' where I can talk something about my day. I'm on the way back home from work... Hope able to sleep tonight...
Hi Z, Thank you. I dont know why you cant send email to me. I will check later when I I use my laptop, now on phone so the inter-face looks strange. Cant find that part of setting to change.
Hi Wall, thank you, I will do that later.
Hi Ken, thanks. It's a nice surprised that there are many people care for me here. Thanks a lot for that.
Now I'm on the way to work, will check back my blog later tonight before I sleep.
Hi Z, after posted that blog I was off from site and now so well for 2 days. After woke up from hospital, I checked and found it seem people worried for me so I logged in and found 2 messages from CS staff saying that they deleted: 1. the blog because I mention suicidal which is not allow. 2. All the photos profile as they said I have to put my photos instead of something else.
Hi KN, thanks, yes, I will move. Because I know well that Crocodile will also sad to know that I'm not able to forget him to have my own life. The only thing I need is time... Maybe 10 years later I will bale to fall in love with someone again... I hope.
Here has a brand they are playing GREAT music... The couple next to my table keep kissing each other a lot...
How?
KN, I do not want to 'wallow'! But it's me who never able to be happy after a broke up. Even it's already a year, but yes, still I feel so sad so for this. Some people said I'm 'sick' becuase according to them I have to be able to happy after all what had happened to me about my love. That why I think I need help from a doctor or a psychologist. But the funny thing is that after I told her all my problem, the psychologist said she could think I were really sick if I were able to happy in my case!! She said I should speak out my feeling more, don't keep it for myself and don't have to pretent as happy if I don't feel so. I'm following her advices.Ian, I'm glad you are able to move that fast with your broken heart. Congrats!