As an American citizen, you have the freedom to say whatever you want - as long as it doesn't upset someone else!
I think it's only those who lack their own beliefs that attack in a negative way. Maybe it makes them uncomfortable, maybe they're trying to avoid their own unresolved issues re: "religion" or maybe they've simply had a bad experience carried out in the name of Christianity - (a sad ogcurrence that seems to come with any kind of organized set of beliefs) The important thing to remember is that it is THEIR issue, not yours! Even though I no longer share your faith, I DO respect your strength and self control . . . . hmmm - if memory serves me correctly, would that not be evidence of a Spirit led life?
Maybe the answer, as well as the time frame is different for everyone, but maybe you need to find the answers to the questions you're asking yourself. Granted, you might not like the answers, but "they" also say the truth sets you free, right? For me, it led to understanding which led to forgiveness and acceptance, after which came the hope that allowed me to truly move on. An added perc is the personal growth you gain when you survive something like this. It may sound corny, but it's true - whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger - and wiser, and I'll bet you're already stronger than what you think you are.
RE: It's for you
Nice write