hi cnote, yes it's all hard, some say there married cause they dont want relationship or some just are really married one a fling on the side, not to sure, hope you have good luck
just becareful, if u go out with him go have him meet your parents first, have date with your parents exspecially this is the internet, but two dates on the phonei think it's kinda earlie for that.
RE: life
yes life is not over get up go for walk dont sit around life is not short